Long time

So I haven't been much of a blogger lately and I have slacked big time. And they say lately and it's been probably over a year. Just to catch you up on what I haven't said is I guess sometimes when happiness just continues and there is no drama words cannot even express this thing that you feel. It's a complacent feeling that can sometimes become overwhelming but in the end I never quite leaves and that in itself is nothing to write about. Yeah I guess I could have done a blog an unanswered questions and friends that I have lost and apologies that I never received. But I guess I just figured why bother dredging up the past when my now my future is just right. Back in 2007 when I came to this wonderful fantastic virtual world everything was so new and everything was exciting. Now my real life has become my main focus and yet I still have the same person in it. Yes I love him no questions asked and I would give anything for his happiness. His happiness means more to me than my own which tells me that what I feel for him is true. I feel very lucky in that it is shared. I do not consider myself a supermodel I always wanted to be a Barbie doll but I've never e close. But that's okay because he makes me feel beautiful everyday even if I'm not who I always wished I was. And you see this is why I haven't blogged I really have not much to say. Yes I've lost a lot of friends well I thought they were friends. But you know but my friends list is still fall and whenever I log in at least 4 still online and I do never have to be alone if I don't want to be but I usually choose to be. It is therapeutic to login and walk around my little speck of land just being and maybe hitting a live show. My virtual world has changed so much but it is changed for me for the better. I no longer lack sleep and tried to be there for every single thing going on. I no longer feel stressed and agitated if my internet is out well maybe because I can't watch Netflix but that's about it. I no longer worry about who's doing what to who and why and who is wrong. A virtual world is better in its simplicity without all the drawbacks all the backstabbing and all the lies. No I am writing this from my phone so forgive me if there is any typos funny bad or what not. I most certainly do not have time to actually type all this out and I go on my laptop so seldom that it is covered in dust. I have always said second life is what you make it and so make it wonderful. I was right about that but it's all the underlying circumstances that I didn't spell out correctly. Second Life is wonderful when it is not your life but a small extension of your real life. It is then when you can stand back and see the realities of the virtual world that makes your world better. I have no regrets we're walking away hand in hand with my partner. We talk everyday and we don't need a virtual world to do so. And for those out there that are reading this and maybe if we haven't talked in awhile. Feel free to say hi if you see me in world yes I know I'm antisocial I'm an introvert and I know that I suck at keeping in touch. The truth is I hate starting a conversation and then having to end of a few minutes later because I have to go so instead I just stay quiet and so I don't have to be rude and say its been nice talking to you for the last 6 minutes but I have to log off. Maher real life bring you all the treasures that's Second Life promised you. Peace out

Going Home

Going Home, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

So I did a Blog almost 2 years ago, Called Going home, It is basically about Home is where the heart is, Not always a Place or where you get your mail. It is Located Here virtualthoughtsbylh.blogspot.com/2012/02/going-home_01.html I used to blog Uber Lot, Or at least write Poetry, Im back to Now doing both. I took a short stint, Changing my Blog to Freebies, Did really well on the blog, But then Got caught up in some SL BS, You know the type that makes it Impossible to do anymore, Not that I didn't want to But My time was Pretty monopolized, I had NO time to do as I wanted, But thats SL, and I now have so many places to make over avatars, I can fix each noob differently as I meet them. I Missed blogging, But what I had to say anymore would have been, Well Directed to one person and one person Only. I DID write a Poem for them, Posted it, watched My Blog, waiting, THey Never even read it... 2 or 3 days later I Took it down, Been working on a Picture to match up with that Poem. GImmie Time, SOO this is Our new Home, It is beautiful after I have changed a few textures and moved a few plants, Inside I already have started decorating and making it all pretty and Festive. I am so geeked for this christmas, I mean, I had a Really shitty year last christmas, Seriously bad, RL/SL it was just a Mess. I ended Up doing more emotional damage to myself trying to fix the problem, than I did saving myself. THat is Me, If I jump in there is NO turning back. This year will Be Uber better, I have a New Job.. And my old job.. Ok, I May be Tired as Fuck lol, I have a Home I actually Consider My home, Not just an empty Vessel I can log Into and I have my outlet, My writing, My poetry My pictures. The best feeling is Going home, and I never plan to leave :)

You KNOW I have a soNg for this Right?? Ha ha Here ya Go! www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9HUV2ZKWJw

Just Us

Just Us, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

OMG He is Blonde! WTF Ha ha, Eh Going for a Dif Look, More Like Meh :) TO match Most of My Pictures I would Use Mirrors, It is that song that fits, But I have to Change this shit up a Bit cause It would get Boring if I didnt Right! I came back across this song after forgetting about it Like UBER Long ago, After so long You learn to appreciate the Little things about someone, this Nuances, thier Moods and silliness. I Love everything about this Person, Good and Bad, Sometimes the Bad even Better *Laughs* But really in the Last 6 and a Half years we have Been together and apart Then together, Then apart, then Together *You get it?*, It is all The Little things that add Up to the big picture, Which Is Us.


Your hand fits in mine
Like its made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots
With the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back
At the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I wont let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh it's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed
Without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason
That you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations
Are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I wont let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
but if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself
Half as much as I love you
You'll never treat yourself right darling
But I want you to
If I let you know
That I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you
Oh...

I've just let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you
Oh it's you
It's you
They add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

Cloaked Happiness

Cloaked Happiness, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

If you have not noticed, I do a Lot of Empowerment pictures, Reality Pictures, Common sense Pictures, Pain and Love pictures, all Of them are bits of my life, from one side of the spectrum to the other. I can do an Uber sad one to a Euphoric one in 5 Minutes or less. Cloaked happiness is just that, a fake beauty covering the reality of what we deal with. is anyones Life perfect? Naw, We all have our own shit to deal with, the only thing we can do is try not to cause More onto our loved ones and friends. RL will beat the hell out of us, SL is supposed to be fun, happy relaxing, Now Im not talking about hurt feelings here, that will happen regardless right after You receive that "We Need to talk" Message... lol, Im talking about the Blatant Disregard for those who you claim as friends. Like for an Example, Your a Bit Tipsey and Your BFFs Boyfriend wants a Lil Quickie, You have decided your to spineless to be honest so You creep around on an alt, You hear a Rumor about a Friend and decide Instead of sticking up for them You pass it on to your circle, You Give away Personal Information that was supposed to be kept to yourself, Seriously, Your Not a friend if You do any of these things, Your a disgrace to the word, THe Word Friend is NOT just a Noun It Is also a Verb, It is a 2 Part thing, act Like a friend Dont just say it then shit on everyone. While I am On my rant here let me ALSO point out, IF you do decide to shit on your friends, however it goes down, Don't just send em a smiley 6 Months later thinking "Oh We should Be cool" In order to Open up communication of someone You shit on,, It is Not only Customary, But Pretty Freaking Common sense to start with an apology. There are some people who are Not accustomed to being apologetic for anything, I Offer You this Link, It was Used by someone I Know, and worked wonders to bring Us back together over time, www.wikihow.com/Write-an-Apology-Letter So do not over step Your friendship, Like "Ohh She will Never find Out" Or, "Its been Long enough" Hell No, There is to many Decent people out there to replace Your ass with, so do not think your above an apology.because Your not, Your just another Deleted name on a List of the many that Log in.

The Beauty That Surrounds You

The Beauty That Surrounds You, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

If your looking for the good things in life, If you cannot find it, You only need to look around, Remember that Movie where that Plastic bag was caught by the wind? Trash made beautiful by the controls of nature. Ever stared at a Bush or flower for so long a bee came to Pollinate, Its Furry body ofsetting the Bright beautiful colors for the flower? Watched the trees move while Your laying below on the ground, listening to the leaves rustle in the distance. Beauty is everywhere, take the time to watch it, Eventually it will become part of you, Inside and Out