Going Home

Going Home… it is not always a location, but a place in your mind, It is a feeling of acceptance and complacency.  It can be a Smell, a smile or a person, It can be a Memory  a lost moment in time. 

In Secondlife, I have a Home,  It is what I have called home for 6 years now, It is my virtual escape from reality.  It is whatever I make it, and I do change it a lot…..But even though it is mine, It is the memories there that make it home,  It is the late nights spent talking about music, movies, People and other things with my online family.  The lot itself is not home,  they are.  I could be anywhere and if they are there I am home,  a place where I want to be, a place that I can nestle in and be complacent. 

It is funny, because there is very few people that can take me “Home” but those that can, have always been there, even if just on my list of online friends.  Even when I am not online, they are there,  they are not just a virtual thought but a real human with warmth, compassion and a heart of gold. 

It is funny that when I tend to stay close to “Home”  others ask me why I am so quiet,  I am not quiet to everyone, just to those that are not with me.  It is not a contest, It is hands down, that one person who can make me smile, accept me and just chill.  Home is where the heart is right?  It is where we hang our hat, regardless of the location.  Home is a frame of mind.

If anything, I  love to be home, I love to be me, and I appreciate those that take me there.  But most of all, I appreciate those that allow me to make my home part of theirs.

Peace Out

All In

 

We are all looking for that one person, that one who makes us smile, carries the burden when they can, the one who will hold you when times are rough and do a simple celebration  when somehow things went right. We crave to have the one who  will protect us and feel as if we would protect them.  It is called UNCONDITIONAL love. 

Funny how we tend to choose a polar opposite of what we need.  I am infamous for dating players,  funny thing they know I hate players so they chill for a while, they gaff me, then the real guy comes out.  Amazing how men get pissy because we can fake an orgasm.  Yet they are the Masters of faking whole relationships…….

I have a blog called what a girl wants,  Anyone that would like to get to know me is requested to read it, they do and they oblige until it is not convenient.  M kay,,,,,Next.  This is also another reason I do not partner,  I am picky to the point of, If you not all in, or drunk when you asked me,  I cannot believe you.

Awhile ago friend was drunk,  So drunk,  that he loved me…. I was more amused at his Drunkiness than I was the word.  I did not budge, but only stayed there till he would finally log off into  their drunken state.and pass out, Of course forgetting everything that was said.   It is so easy to fall into something, Yet so hard to be all in. 

Before you decide your going to be all in, keep your sanity in check, keep it real and for gods sakes don’t do it because you don’t want to lose someone, Because in the end you may lose them regardless, you will most certainly lose their respect for bull shitting your way through a relationship. 

You may not mean the world to everyone, But to Someone you will mean the word to, Isn't that what the goal is?