Going Home

Going Home, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

So I did a Blog almost 2 years ago, Called Going home, It is basically about Home is where the heart is, Not always a Place or where you get your mail. It is Located Here virtualthoughtsbylh.blogspot.com/2012/02/going-home_01.html I used to blog Uber Lot, Or at least write Poetry, Im back to Now doing both. I took a short stint, Changing my Blog to Freebies, Did really well on the blog, But then Got caught up in some SL BS, You know the type that makes it Impossible to do anymore, Not that I didn't want to But My time was Pretty monopolized, I had NO time to do as I wanted, But thats SL, and I now have so many places to make over avatars, I can fix each noob differently as I meet them. I Missed blogging, But what I had to say anymore would have been, Well Directed to one person and one person Only. I DID write a Poem for them, Posted it, watched My Blog, waiting, THey Never even read it... 2 or 3 days later I Took it down, Been working on a Picture to match up with that Poem. GImmie Time, SOO this is Our new Home, It is beautiful after I have changed a few textures and moved a few plants, Inside I already have started decorating and making it all pretty and Festive. I am so geeked for this christmas, I mean, I had a Really shitty year last christmas, Seriously bad, RL/SL it was just a Mess. I ended Up doing more emotional damage to myself trying to fix the problem, than I did saving myself. THat is Me, If I jump in there is NO turning back. This year will Be Uber better, I have a New Job.. And my old job.. Ok, I May be Tired as Fuck lol, I have a Home I actually Consider My home, Not just an empty Vessel I can log Into and I have my outlet, My writing, My poetry My pictures. The best feeling is Going home, and I never plan to leave :)

You KNOW I have a soNg for this Right?? Ha ha Here ya Go! www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9HUV2ZKWJw

Just Us

Just Us, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

OMG He is Blonde! WTF Ha ha, Eh Going for a Dif Look, More Like Meh :) TO match Most of My Pictures I would Use Mirrors, It is that song that fits, But I have to Change this shit up a Bit cause It would get Boring if I didnt Right! I came back across this song after forgetting about it Like UBER Long ago, After so long You learn to appreciate the Little things about someone, this Nuances, thier Moods and silliness. I Love everything about this Person, Good and Bad, Sometimes the Bad even Better *Laughs* But really in the Last 6 and a Half years we have Been together and apart Then together, Then apart, then Together *You get it?*, It is all The Little things that add Up to the big picture, Which Is Us.


Your hand fits in mine
Like its made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots
With the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back
At the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I wont let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh it's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed
Without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason
That you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations
Are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I wont let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
but if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself
Half as much as I love you
You'll never treat yourself right darling
But I want you to
If I let you know
That I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you
Oh...

I've just let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you
Oh it's you
It's you
They add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

Cloaked Happiness

Cloaked Happiness, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

If you have not noticed, I do a Lot of Empowerment pictures, Reality Pictures, Common sense Pictures, Pain and Love pictures, all Of them are bits of my life, from one side of the spectrum to the other. I can do an Uber sad one to a Euphoric one in 5 Minutes or less. Cloaked happiness is just that, a fake beauty covering the reality of what we deal with. is anyones Life perfect? Naw, We all have our own shit to deal with, the only thing we can do is try not to cause More onto our loved ones and friends. RL will beat the hell out of us, SL is supposed to be fun, happy relaxing, Now Im not talking about hurt feelings here, that will happen regardless right after You receive that "We Need to talk" Message... lol, Im talking about the Blatant Disregard for those who you claim as friends. Like for an Example, Your a Bit Tipsey and Your BFFs Boyfriend wants a Lil Quickie, You have decided your to spineless to be honest so You creep around on an alt, You hear a Rumor about a Friend and decide Instead of sticking up for them You pass it on to your circle, You Give away Personal Information that was supposed to be kept to yourself, Seriously, Your Not a friend if You do any of these things, Your a disgrace to the word, THe Word Friend is NOT just a Noun It Is also a Verb, It is a 2 Part thing, act Like a friend Dont just say it then shit on everyone. While I am On my rant here let me ALSO point out, IF you do decide to shit on your friends, however it goes down, Don't just send em a smiley 6 Months later thinking "Oh We should Be cool" In order to Open up communication of someone You shit on,, It is Not only Customary, But Pretty Freaking Common sense to start with an apology. There are some people who are Not accustomed to being apologetic for anything, I Offer You this Link, It was Used by someone I Know, and worked wonders to bring Us back together over time, www.wikihow.com/Write-an-Apology-Letter So do not over step Your friendship, Like "Ohh She will Never find Out" Or, "Its been Long enough" Hell No, There is to many Decent people out there to replace Your ass with, so do not think your above an apology.because Your not, Your just another Deleted name on a List of the many that Log in.

The Beauty That Surrounds You

The Beauty That Surrounds You, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

If your looking for the good things in life, If you cannot find it, You only need to look around, Remember that Movie where that Plastic bag was caught by the wind? Trash made beautiful by the controls of nature. Ever stared at a Bush or flower for so long a bee came to Pollinate, Its Furry body ofsetting the Bright beautiful colors for the flower? Watched the trees move while Your laying below on the ground, listening to the leaves rustle in the distance. Beauty is everywhere, take the time to watch it, Eventually it will become part of you, Inside and Out

Regret

Regret, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Regret sucks really, Dosnt it, Especially When the One person you let down was Yourself. I think forgiving yourself for doing something is hella lot harder than forgiving someone else for fucking up, because When we ultimately do it, we are the Ones accountable We are the ones who pay for it. It is Not easy to apologize to ones self now is it? *Coughs* I am Really Sorry I did that (at this Point that pit in our stomach grows and a Cloud covers any hope and light we had and we start remembering all those things ALL over again). Then there is the other side, the actions we take AFTER the apology, Do they come close to the action we should have taken? I have apologized for stealing a cookie, But then stole yet another One.. Not the Most stellar apology since My words and actions did Not correspond.. I Wanted the damn Cookie, Im Only Sorry I got CAUGHT taking the damn Delicious Baked good Oozing with chocolate… Thanks Mom . So I I have No Lesson Here, Just My Fav saying, Action Talks, Bullshit walks… If you cannot back it Up, Shove it Up your ass 

Color My World

Color My World, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

When everything else fails, When you think you will never find happiness, when you THINK you had hit bottom, to far to climb up, when you have given up all hope, when you finally decide you were never ment to be happy is when you realize the reason it never worked is because there was something better.

I've had enough of not believing
Living life without a meaning
I want something real and I feel it when I'm next to you
Let's put out some love and devotion
Window to my hearts emotion, till the very end
It's the place I'm gonna keep you in, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Color my world, draw on my heart
Take a picture of what you think
Love looks like in your imagination
Write on my soul, everything you know
Use every word you've ever heard to color my world

Color my world, yeah
Let's make a world for you and me
That we're never gonna leave, yeah
Color my world


www.youtube.com/watch?v=6qegQ0xQtuI

Blue

Blue, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Every have that moment, the world stood still, all around was motionless, Everyone of your movements seemed to rush havoc onto the entire universe. I love these moments when we can stop, Look around See the beauty in silence, Take in the nature of the moment, Regroup your thoughts and let them bury themselves properly into your memory. Some things we cannot control until we hit that point of of a subtle comatose start of awakening, then we are able to see that belong where, taking the bad and seperating the lessons from the pain, a Wise man once said, a stupid man nether forgives nor forgets, a smart man Forgives and forgets, BUT a wise man Forgives and NEVER forgets. Let the lessons you have learned carry you, they will always make tomorrow easier.

Wont Let this Go

Wont Let this Go, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Okies, Peeps I am Out, This pic was done for Someone Whom I am Leaving ya all For today so No More Pictures till Further notice ;) May your heart be blessed with that one who can make you feel all Warm and fuzzy.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tldm6uMt1J8

Your My Yesterdays Tomorrow

Your My Yesterdays Tomorrow, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Pose E9 - Sitting Pretty
[ SAKIDE ] Out of Asylum Outfit Black

Forever Young

Forever Young, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

So we live a life like a video when the sun is always out
And you never get old and the champagne's always cold
And the music is always good and the pretty girls
Just happen to stop by in the hood

And they hop their pretty ass up on the hood of that pretty ass car
Without a wrinkle in today 'cause there is no tomorrow
Just some picture perfect day to last a whole lifetime
And it never ends 'cause all we have to do is hit rewind

So let's just stay in the moment, smoke some weed, drink some wine
Reminisce, talk some shit, forever young is in your mind
Leave a mark that can't erase neither space nor time
So when the director yells cut, I'll be fine, I'm forever young

Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever and ever


Jay-Z - Forever Young Lyrics

Online Games

Online Games, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I do not feel that this picture needs a description or a story. I believe it tells a story in itself and all of us have played part (Thank You for all the Support On this Photo, It means SO Much!)

Dancing With Death

Dancing With Death, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Is it Possible to Learn to Live, without the Existence of Death? Is it possible to grow without out lessons? Are you capable of appreciating the good times without the bad? Can you learn to overcome things, when there are no obstacles? Without the Darkness, There is no light, and vice versa, We cannot have one without the other, the key is to embrace both sides as your friend, throw yourself into each when presented, if you do not, no lessons are taught, No appreciation is gained. I Love the dark, only because the light is so prominent, I Love the Light, for it is my salvation. For my life, I choose to dance with the darkness, let it envelope me in its sorrow, For once it grows tired of me, The light shall embrace me in its warmth.

The Last Stand

The Last Stand, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I Had a song I did this song for, But the picture is a bit to Sinister for the song.. LMAO.. Hmm. How do Iget my Ideas? Mostly Songs, Or a Random text, a Skype Convo or maybe something somebody said So I can go from day at the park, to Death to all In 30nSec or less. SOOO Let me try to write something for this Picture since the song is apparently is NOT gonna work.
This is It, My last and final stand,
Alone I will Fight, No, I Don’t need Your Hand,
I don’t Need what You Promised, Nor what you gave,
That walking side By side, I cannot save,
I tried, I hide, I kept quiet for to long,
I smiled I Pretended, I sent you sweet songs,
I Paid, I cried, I Lied to myself and You,
I gave everything I Had, I was always true,
Here is My last stand this is what you get,
As my life evolves, and alone, You sit,
So Sad, so sorry, So Unbelievably clear,
Back then You didn’t want me near,
Funny Life turns, My angelic side died away,
Some parts Never change, Ill be Ok,
You grasp at delusions, We were Just long lost friends,
Not remembering the torture, How it actually did end,
For all the lonely nights, all the moments I felt so alone,
I was right in feeling that way; You had turned Into a stone,
Release My Inner Darkness, Sheath covered In our bloody Bond,
Here I am, Once I was a Friend Who you took and Conned

into the eyes of evil

into the eyes of evil, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

“Why Me” I whispered, Shaking and holding back the tears,
He half smiled, Half looked blank “It’s been so Many Years”
Cannot hold back my regret, Disdain nor the sorrow,
Nothing will ever be the same, Yesterday, Today or tomorrow,
Rethinking my thoughts, He does not give a damn,
But in hindsight I have changed, I do not know who I am,
I need to run away, He has No words to mask his smile.
His cold and heartless nature, were always his particular style,
I tried to break his shell, I tried to melt his heart,
Instead he ripped Mine out, grinned as it fell apart,
As I Look at Evil, so many faces it’s Been,
Apologies are worth a Million, But Still No one will Win

without You (Poetry)

without You 1, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Without You I make No sense, I make no rhyme or reason
Without you I am lost, I cannot see through the Trees and,
Without I am nothing, But an empty vessel of broken dreams,
But with you I am strong, I am Hopeful, My Future Gleams,
Without I feel so Small, So empty deep inside,
Without you I have always been alone, Noone to Confide,
Without you I was searching, Searching for what you gave,
But with you I am Whole, I can go peacefully to My Grave.
Without I tried to find happiness, all I found was a lot of Doubt,
People who tore me apart, Chewed me Up, then Spit me out,
Without you I fell apart, yet tried to stand my ground,
But with you, Missing me, I was lost, but now I am Found.

End Of the road

End Of the road, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

At the end of the day where do you want to be? I guess that is the big question, because instead of saying I want to have my own business in X amount of years, 1 day seems pretty damn easy. At the end of my day I want to be one step toward my personal success, 2 steps back on memories and 1 step up on the competition.
Note I want nothing below anything, I spent most my SL and part of my RL being put Below something, I broke free of that and now I stand on the remnants of those crushed and crumbled aspirations and dreams, reorganized my thoughts, Filed away the tears and started over completely. At the end of the road do You continue? Turn back? Or just watch?
I have always been a believer of moving onward, never stopping my quest for happiness, wherever it takes me, down an old path, making my own, or maybe one someone else started themselves. I have all the happiness one could ask for, only because I have changed my wants, needs and outlook on the world, I changed within myself. I have no delusional dreams of any one person, I do not need them, I have myself, the one person who in the end has never let me down. It is hard being your own best friend at times, you want to blame yourself for things that the control was never yours, you were just on the sidelines maybe trying to put together the remnants of flying pieces tossed your way, but in the end, You were not the one making the pieces, and the failure just goes back onto the those tossing them.
My fav sim right now is named after Hell, It is my sanctuary of peace, Funny really, I lived in hell so long, it does not surprise me I am at home there. I sit there on my bike, look over the landscape, at the trees and lakes, the homes and churches, the memorials and bridges and smile. I have made my own heaven In hell.

Watching the day Go by

Watching the day Go by, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

People say I'm crazy
Doing what I'm doing
Well, they give me all kinds of warnings
To save me from ruin

When I say that I'm okay
Well, they look at me kinda strange
Surely you're not happy now
You no longer play the game

People say I'm lazy
Dreaming my life away
Well, they give me all kinds of advice
Designed to enlighten me

When I tell them that I'm doing fine
Watching shadows on the wall
Don't you miss the big time, boy?
You're no longer on the ball

I'm just sitting here
Watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll

No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go

Ah, people asking questions
Lost in confusion
Well, I tell them, there's no problem
Only solutions

Well, they shake their heads
And they look at me as if I've lost my mind
I tell them, there's no hurry
I, I'm just sitting here doing time

I'm just sitting here
Watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll

No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go
I just had to let it go
I just had to let it go


John Lennon - Watching The Wheels

Bruises

Bruises, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I started a Picture a few days ago, But atm its Not time to post, so I am going to jump back into my Pile if creativity to kick a few pictures out. This song is so sweet, about finding an old friend, sharing stories and just finding out your not alone. So nice when you find that someone again for the first time.

I would love to fix it all for you
(I would love to fix you too)
Please don't fix a thing whatever you do

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
It's good to know you've got a friend
That you remember now and then
Everybody loses

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
Its good to let you in again
You're not alone in how you've been
Everybody loses
(Everybody loses)
Everybody loses
We all got bruises
We all got bruises
We all got bruises

Night Stalker

Night Stalker, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

E9 Poses - Tessy Kitty
Mystic Tiger Outfit
Catwa Hair - TnT

Night Stalker

Night Stalker, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

E9 Poses - Tessy Kitty
Mystic Tiger Outfit
Catwa Hair - TnT

Bruises

Bruises, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I started a Picture a few days ago, But atm its Not time to post, so I am going to jump back into my Pile if creativity to kick a few pictures out. This song is so sweet, about finding an old friend, sharing stories and just finding out your not alone. So nice when you find that someone again for the first time.

I would love to fix it all for you
(I would love to fix you too)
Please don't fix a thing whatever you do

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
It's good to know you've got a friend
That you remember now and then
Everybody loses

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
Its good to let you in again
You're not alone in how you've been
Everybody loses
(Everybody loses)
Everybody loses
We all got bruises
We all got bruises
We all got bruises

My Turlaccor

My Turlaccor, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

So Long ago I acquired a bike, It was a rideable, Poseable awesome Looking bike Like really cool, after seeing it out of my Inventory for 1 day, It was tossed back in half-hazardly and forgotten. I Scoured My Inventory, Did a Serious Clean, Checked Trash, Returned Etc, NOTHING I was sad… It was a gift, as It is VERY expensive and Nothing I could ever afford. FAST FORWARD >>>>>

A year later, I found the bike, Or the Like bike I had, on Marketplace, I went to the store (actually Been there a few times, but after seeing the Prices, I sadly sluffed Off being poor) SO, I took a chance and I Wrote the Owner, Telling him the Jist of the Purchase with avatar names Etc and aprox time of purchase, and he was so sweet, He said pick one you like, Ill send it to you… Not even the same one if you like another… Seriously!! OMFG DUDE I LOVE YOU! Ok, Not the deep love But seriously, I am in debt to You. This is what I call Karma, I have always tried to be good in SL to ppl, I don’t fuck with their Minds, I don’t play games, I don’t grief or cause shit between people, I just try to exist and be a shoulder when I can. The creator did NOT have to send me shit, It’s been a year and well, as a creator Myself, I Know that Logs Etc are Not always accurate and nether are my purchase records. I sent him 2 Bikes, One was a Harder Looking Harley, Lots Of chrome etc at 2K then My Sports bike at 3K. He sent me the sports version which has 98 Poses (singles and couples), a Sex Menu, Dancing, Riding Option and tons of Options Like Radio, Lights, Fog Etc.
I am so In love with this bike, I have rode it off the platform at my lot, hit LL roads, Cycle sims, and only had it 3 days now. I would so Recommend these bikes, so well made and have so many fun things as add ons, Color change and did I Mention Music?? I LOVE MUSIC! So for now I’m the Biker chick, Funny, I have many biker friends who are elated I have found the Open Road.

Confused

Confused, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=JjTjtJDZomw

Falling leaves

Falling leaves, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

 Have you ever been so far up in a tree, You felt like you could see forever?  Gotten that pit in your stomach with fear of falling?  I Dislike heights,  I would say hate, But I do not use that word, it is to strong for most things.  The hardest thing to do is conquer a fear, overcome an obstacle, let yourself believe you can do the impossible.  I cannot say I have overcome much, like most, I go day to day, I struggle, I  fail, I succeed, It is a cycle I am quite used to.  I Fear the Unknown future, I fear snakes, and the most I fear is losing those I love the most.   Until I cannot move, Until I cannot breath, Until I cannot feel and I am numb from something uncontrollable, I will Climb to the highest branch, look over the tranquil scenery and I will Believe,  I will believe that regardless of if I fall, I will get back Up and I will keep Climbing.

Wrecking Ball

Wrecking Ball, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

songmeanings.com/songs/view/3530822107859465986/

Ever have that song you want to hate so freaking bad… BUT CAN’T… This is that song for Me, I Personally am far from a fan of the artist that released this song, BUT the song is so well written (Not by her) that It tears me up. It seriously Irritates Me to no end, so I am going to post this damn picture, which has Been in my head for days Now so I can let it go and Move On. The Song you ask? Oh yeah, I am also going to attach a Link to a Cover of it, Really well done and Less irritating for me to admit I Like.
WHY Does this song hit a nerve, well I think the lyrics are just to true, especially when you have been in a relationship that was destined for failure from the beginning. It is a Tribute for those that tried, Put it all in 1 hun then lost it all. For each I am sure the lyrics and song will mean different things But for Me here is how I Hear It
We clawed, we chained, our hearts in vain
We jumped, never asking why
We kissed, I fell under your spell
A love no one could deny
(Here is the part where, For vanities sake, we WILL make this work, even if its Not right, Not even an intelligent decision)

CHORUS
Don’t you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can’t live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was break me
Yeah, you wreck me
(Sometimes people change to the point you don’t even know them, It is erie really, it is more like who was I really with, I think the wanting part is wanting what You thought you had, because the next line is living a lie, who the hell wants that? I’m not signing up for that shit anytime soon. Next chorus is the wrecking ball part, to me signifies tossing yourself in, good, bad, or well just stupid (Ha ha) BUT apparently this person never intended to be who they said they were, You can beg someone to be honest, to open up, but that’s going to go Nowhere fast. Ultimately it will break you, the trying, the pleading, the disappointment, they WILL wreck you

I put you high up in the sky
And now, you’re not coming down
It slowly turned, you let me burn
And now, we’re ashes on the ground

(You build someone Up, Give them confidence, tell them how awesome they are, how they are so wonderful, How special they are * Can You say Huge Ego? * and they say fuck it, I don’t need you any more, Look how fucking awesome I am

Don’t you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can’t live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you


I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
And instead of using force
I guess I should’ve let you in
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
I guess I should’ve let you in
(Here we go, it’s the end, and GAH, she apparently was not actually 1 hun ether, eh it happens, for me at least it was more of a Sings * I Know some thing You don’t Know I Know” thing but regardless I didn’t share, why bother, like talking to myself except for Im an awesome listener  )

Don’t you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was break me

I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crouching in a blaze and fall
All you ever did was break me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

Yeah, you, you wreck me
Ok End of song, they were not who she thought, they of course will blame her because she jetted, but hell, how long can you kick around with a cold corpse, ya Know? she tried, got hurt, Moments over, But DAMN this song is so strong.. Kudos to MoZella, Stephan Moccio, Sacha Skarbek, Dr. Luke and Cirkut that actually wrote the song, I give you admiration for making a song I so wanted to dislike, but you pulled My ass right in

Derek

Derek, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Have You Ever watched Criminal Minds? Tons of sickos on there But then there is My Guilty Sin, My Secret fantasy.. Derek Morgan... Holy Shit, His eyes Melt me, his hard side excites Me and his soft side.. Well that excites Me to LOL. This man should be the poster child for all men. He is the Tall, Dark and Handsome Intensified times a Million. Ok, I think I am Done drooling over the Picture I made his shape Off of (Wipes Key Board) Thank You Tray for Posing for Me, Mucho Kisses and Did I Mention You Looked HAWT? *Giggles and goes back to Real Life

Eyes Wide Shut

Eyes Wide Shut, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

“When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.”

Helen Keller

Eternally Yours

Eternally Yours, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

There is euphoria in being a vampire, the best cross reference for a human is being on ecstasy and valium at the same time. It is a Numbing complacent feeling until you find that one thing you want, and then it crawls through your entire being, a passion that cannot be stopped or harnessed. To be a vampire is to give up the simple things like taste, Sleep, pain, But to gain Flight, eternal life, Eternal Love. As one from the darker side, my days are spent in hibernation, behind closed drapes, walking around the bright rays that escape in the small arches of the heavy fabric. Music is how I spend my days, calming, soothing, numbing notes. It is at night I become alive with an energy words cannot describe, as if something has taken over my thoughts, filled me with an obsession of prey, one that keeps my body tingling with excitement.

The travelor

The travelor, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

“Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored. There are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.”

Dr Seuss

I Love this man, He was so upbeat and literally honest to point of amusement.

Where have I been? Where did I Go?
Did I move fast? Why did I go slow?
Forgetting my path, Off of my plans,
Letting go of lifes silly demands,
Grabbing for difference, running so fast,
Get me away, Get me away fast,
I know theres a game, a game to be played,
I lost my way, Should not have strayed,
But look at the lessons, Look at my Past,
It was just tomorrow, and now gone so fast,
So I wont close my eyes, Oh no I don’t dare,
And Into the future My gaze I will stare
Ok There is My Dr Seuss Like Poem 
Hugs and Blessings to all

Falling leaves

Falling leaves, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Have you ever been so far up in a tree, You felt like you could see forever? Gotten that pit in your stomach with fear of falling? I Dislike heights, I would say hate, But I do not use that word, it is to strong for most things. The hardest thing to do is conquer a fear, overcome an obstacle, let yourself believe you can do the impossible. I cannot say I have overcome much, like most, I go day to day, I struggle, I fail, I succeed, It is a cycle I am quite used to. I Fear the Unknown future, I fear snakes, and the most I fear is losing those I love the most. Until I cannot move, Until I cannot breath, Until I cannot feel and I am numb from something uncontrollable, I will Climb to the highest branch, look over the tranquil scenery and I will Believe, I will believe that regardless of if I fall, I will get back Up and I will keep Climbing.

making ships

making ships, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

“Inside my empty bottle I was constructing a lighthouse while all the others were making ships.”

Charles Simic

Island Bride 2

Island Bride 2, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Fantastic Pose from E9 Not to forget a Beautiful Sim to grab shots at. <3 

Island Bride

Island Bride, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Fantastic Pose from E9 Not to forget a Beautiful Sim to grab shots at. <3 

Say No Evil, See No Evil

Say No Evil, See No Evil, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Nowhere to call Home

Nowhere to call Home, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Hide

Hide, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Fighting For Life

Fighting For Life, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Still not over you

Still not over you, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

i should have never let you go (always another)
i need this more than you will know, but there's always another
a million byways and highways and there's always another
someone else to pay your way and try to take your innocence
there's always heartbreak
i hold steady while you're shaking me loose
you keep breaking me down but i still ain't over you
i've been living like there's nothing to lose
and i'm telling you now that i still ain't over you
i keep your letters by my bed and there's always another
i hear your voice inside my head and there's always another
a waste of time wasted our days and there's always another
someone else to make you suffer
make you think this whole thing over

What a fantastic song, this one is that one person you had to walk away from, It was hard, But Needed, and they had no clue you were not coming back, hell, Why Would'nt you, I mean, They were the best right? *Coughs* The song is sung from the guy who fucked it all up, let you go and has moved On so many times it is not funny anymore, it is just sad, because he still cares, he still wants you, he still thinks someone is going to fuck you up more so you will come running back thinking "Oh, He was not THAT bad". If you reading this and thinking of going back, DON'T....a player only changes the game until he can find a new way to break the rules.
Rob Thomas - Still Not Over You
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Smi6OXRPLDQ

Liberty and Justice for all

Liberty and Justice for all, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

No Song, No reason besides I love this Outfit.

With silent lips. "Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"


(fd) Bossy Boots - Red
Gawk! Dark Blue Basic Jeans // Miss America Ed. (Mesh)
Gawk! White Basic Tank Top
GizzA - Asia Watch&Bracelet
-Belleza- Ava Sk BL 10

The Anchor

The Anchor, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

What is holding You back? Toss that crap aside, Deep into the depths of history, No looking back now! We all have something, Someone holding us down, where we are, unable to move, suffocating, suffering, Why do we hold onto it, Easy Complacency. We become so used to the weight, the tightness we forget it is there, but once you try for something that would interfere with it, THAT is when you feel it, Your at a wall, the end of the leash so to speak. I have carried my anchor, tossed it and never dived back in to search to see how it was, I know its still there, among the sandy shores and green sludge at the bottom of the water, I'm not gonna Look, Because I hate to wear shower shoes, Fuck that shit ... Ha ha

I Tried

I Tried, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I Put on purple nail polish, and blush on my cheeks,
Glossed up my lips then brushed my hair so sleek,
looking in the mirror i sighed at the reflection,
As the image staring back, was nothing but Imperfection,
Adding color to my eyes and concealing a tiny scare,
I took another look, but still did not meet par,
Biting lip and sighed again, tears welling up in my eyes,
Inside my head the voices screamed all those senseless lies,
My image had become so useless, it became a shadow of who I once seemed,
A once funny, silly crazy girl, the socialite it seemed,
wiping away the make up, smearing it across my face,
I nolonger had the will to try, nor the finesse and grace,
huddled in the corner, arms wrapped around my chest,
I silently gave up on trying my feeble quest

Dear joan

Dear joan, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Some of these songs are harder than Others, Dear Joan was written and re-released on Rob thomas's CD but originally released by his first band Tabathas Secret. It is about the ultimate betrayal, abuse. Mental, Physical and emotional. The guy is writing a letter to his girlfriend apologizing to her for what he had done to her over the span of thier relationship. She on the other hand, Stood by him, hoping he would stop, believing when he would say the pain was over, hoping everyday for the better. The raw emotion in the tabitha's secret Version is so much better I am attaching a Link to that one, even though the quality is not as good, it will haunt you.

Dear Joan
I've almost forgotten the pain in the window
The blue dress in the doorway
Dear Joan
Help me remember the face I forget
And the traps that I've sprung

I guess I've grown tired
It's just what's expected of me
To tear your heart
From the inside to the outside
You know I was wired
I just couldn't help it
The hundred thousand times
I hurt you

Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan
Dear Joan
Your face has brightness
That I've never seen
In the years that I've known you
Dear Joan
I'll pick up the pieces
But some traveled so far
They flew when I kicked them
Across the room
I know you believed when I said it was over
You stood by me patiently waiting and brooding
So deeply in love
With every face I've shown
Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan
Once I forget
Twice I'm a fool
Three times I wrap my hands around your neck
While you're sleeping

www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnwduX1w3BQ

Lonely No More

Lonely No More, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I Left the harder songs for Me for the last, these are more personal, a bit more, soul tearing. this song is my whole last relationship in a 4 and a half min chorus, being in the middle of people and being so lonely you want to disappear into oblivion. You want to try, But history already tells you why bother, its already over, thier words deceive their actions and your feelings deceive the smile on your face. you stand there pretending, or as I call it, Role playing out every moment, knowing what is going on, yet pleading for them to change, to be who they once were, their empty promises last as long as a kardashian marriage, maybe longer, depending on the marriage. THey Know your not the type to deal with this Bull shit, yet you love them enough to let them treat you like the water boy at a super bowl game. It is one thing to be alone and to be lonely, Yet the worst is being with someone and wishing you were alone.

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want another lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list

www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9K0d2ALK_4

This is how a heart Breaks

This is how a heart Breaks, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Seriously one of the Most energetic Heart break songs EVER, It gets you moving all while saying I've been Fucked Over and It hurts. When you fall for someone it always seems so great, the perfect choice, then the bottom hits, they are No different than the others and the ride from high to low seems so fast and furious. When you realize you are done, the adrenaline over takes You, Shoot first ask questions later kinda moment, Run fast and get out before something or someone changes your mind.

Don't you wanna go for a ride?
Just keep your hands inside
And make the most out of life
Now don't you take it for granted
Life is like a mean machine
It made a mess outta me
It left me caught between
Like an angry dream I was stranded
I was stranded
And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake
And I don't know how much more I can take
This is it now
Everybody get down
This is all I can take
This is how a heart breaks
You take a hit now
You feel it break down
Make you stay wide awake
This is how a heart breaks

www.youtube.com/watch?v=2B_lci2lJTY

My My My

My My My, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Being silent and holding things in is a way of coping with things your not sure how to express. Sometimes we are scared of possibilities, other times we already know the answer and try to put off the outcome. Within each of us lies the strength we never knew we had to live out our happiness with or without what we thought we needed.

And when you find you're spending your time
Wanting for words but never speak
You tell yourself that the things you need come slow
But inside you just don't know


My, my, my
Let your bright light shine
Let your words live on
Far beyond this life
Beyond this life


Hold on to anything
Everything's over and done
Has the fear taken over you
Tell me is that what you want
To make up your life

www.youtube.com/watch?v=vra08lcpT5E

street Corner Symphony

street Corner Symphony, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Sometimes you have to dance Like noone is watching, I personally brought My Puppies with me, because I did not feel like being alone at this early hour of the Morning. When you wake and remember to be thankful for this wonderful life you have been givin, all the good and bad, you can also learn to celebrate even the smallest successes like my lipstick looks great with this shirt. Appreciate the bad, embrace it even, without those splashes of pain, our happiness would not be so intensified. As of right now I am thankful for a "I Miss You text" and a good night sleep, even if I am up at the ass crack of dawn. Today I shall Celebrate life as I head to my friends Fathers Funeral, and share their pain, and spend the rest of the day filling a basket full of goodies for them to munch on till the over whelming loss has subsided. I Live for pay it forward, and I know it will come full circle one day.

It's morning
I wake up
The taste of summer sweetness on my tongue
It's a clear day
In this city
Let's go dance under the street lights
All the people in this world
Let's come together
More than ever
I can feel it
Can you feel it

Come on over
Down to the corner
My sisters and my brothers of every different color
Don't you feel that sunshine telling you to hold tight
Things will be alright
Try to find a better life

Rob thomas

www.youtube.com/watch?v=zaoyodNJFyk

Not just a Woman

Not just a Woman, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I love these Empowerment songs, admittly we are weak, yet strong, We have to hold the world, yet can fall apart from the smallest things. I Know I can be strong, I KNOW I can make it through anything, But I know at my weaker times, I can crumble and feel as if the world is falling in on me. This song was written for His wife, who has a painful debilitating nerve disorder, she can hold herself together to be a victoria secrets model, but at night, she is in so much pain, she cries in a silent abyss of despair. I think the bottom line of this song is his respect for her, for holding them, their life together all while dealing with her own illness in which he cannot do anything. He is in awe of her strength. Thank you to those who truly respect the inner qualities of their partners, It is those of you, that give us strength in numbers.

She's just a woman
not just a woman
She's terrified and
she's unafraid
She'll change her mind
with the change of the seasons
She's every reason
you'll ever need


She'll never say what you
should already know by now
Sometimes you'll swear
she can read your mind
Sometimes she'll seem as if
she's broken down

www.youtube.com/watch?v=VC0c6SQKyo4

You Know Me

You Know Me, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

You know that friend, the one that knows you better that yourself, They know what your thinking even without you saying the words. They are the one to call you out, tell you how it is but always catch you when you fall. You can screw stuff up, let them down, go against everything you believe in, and they, will still be there. They will tell you what is going to happen, you wont believe them, you can point out the obvious, you will ignore them, you can try to walk away, they will not let you go. This person has the highest tolerance of abuse any friend could have, and you always hurt those that you love the most, But then, this is a two way street. Your not the perfect person, you have done the same to them. This is the friend who you can always turn to, the one you will do anything for, the one you will back even if they are wrong. These friends are far and few between, they are our light in the darkest hour, they are our guardian angels


You got hurt bad
Man, who don't?
There's those who will help and those who won't
I would then - You know me
It starts up here
It brings you down
Cry me a river I'll try not to drown
I'm thick skinned - you know me
Yeah, you know everything
Sometimes I feel so small
I'm not that stong but I'd sure like to be
but you know me
After years it starts to turn
I get together and you get burned
Younger then - you know me
I don't say what could have been
I don't say nothing these wall are thin
I'm Paranoid Baby, But you know me
You know me I'm always sorry, sorry, always
I got a lot of problems and my problems won't change
And you know it makes me feel bad, I feel bad always
You make me feel bad, always

www.youtube.com/watch?v=vn4vj_WPqVU

Problem Girl

Problem Girl, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Last song on my Rob Thomas CD - Something to Be - It has been so much fun doing each song in a version of Secondlife.
Letting ourselves get hurt by the choices, actions and words of others, We wear it on the inside, unlike this picture, we let it simmer and boil up to be a slow immobilizing poison to our outlook on life. Lean on those that care, never let go of your inner hope, it may be dim, but with each flicker of hope is a brighter promise.

Don't let 'em get where they're going to
You know they're only what they think of you
You heard of this emotional trickery
And you felt like you were learning the ropes
But where you're going now you don't now


And when the kids on the street say
What's your problem girl
And the weight of their smile's just
Too much for you to bear
When they all make you feel
Like you're a problem girl
Remember
You're no problem at all

Maybe Someday

Maybe Someday, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

This Rob Thomas song is so Uplifting, about acceptance, Love and Faith in yourself and one another. It was an easy choice to do this song next,
it makes me think of so many possibilities and gives me hope in tomorrow.


You can go, you can start all over again
You could try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide, hold all your feelings inside
You could try to carry on when all you wanna do is cry
And maybe someday we'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
And try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow, someday
Now we wait and try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you could change your mind
You can run, oh, and when everything is over and done
You could shine a little light on everything around you
Man, it's good to be someone
And maybe someday we'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow, someday

www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6pODq8_FxE