Going Home

Going Home, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

So I did a Blog almost 2 years ago, Called Going home, It is basically about Home is where the heart is, Not always a Place or where you get your mail. It is Located Here virtualthoughtsbylh.blogspot.com/2012/02/going-home_01.html I used to blog Uber Lot, Or at least write Poetry, Im back to Now doing both. I took a short stint, Changing my Blog to Freebies, Did really well on the blog, But then Got caught up in some SL BS, You know the type that makes it Impossible to do anymore, Not that I didn't want to But My time was Pretty monopolized, I had NO time to do as I wanted, But thats SL, and I now have so many places to make over avatars, I can fix each noob differently as I meet them. I Missed blogging, But what I had to say anymore would have been, Well Directed to one person and one person Only. I DID write a Poem for them, Posted it, watched My Blog, waiting, THey Never even read it... 2 or 3 days later I Took it down, Been working on a Picture to match up with that Poem. GImmie Time, SOO this is Our new Home, It is beautiful after I have changed a few textures and moved a few plants, Inside I already have started decorating and making it all pretty and Festive. I am so geeked for this christmas, I mean, I had a Really shitty year last christmas, Seriously bad, RL/SL it was just a Mess. I ended Up doing more emotional damage to myself trying to fix the problem, than I did saving myself. THat is Me, If I jump in there is NO turning back. This year will Be Uber better, I have a New Job.. And my old job.. Ok, I May be Tired as Fuck lol, I have a Home I actually Consider My home, Not just an empty Vessel I can log Into and I have my outlet, My writing, My poetry My pictures. The best feeling is Going home, and I never plan to leave :)

You KNOW I have a soNg for this Right?? Ha ha Here ya Go! www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9HUV2ZKWJw

Just Us

Just Us, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

OMG He is Blonde! WTF Ha ha, Eh Going for a Dif Look, More Like Meh :) TO match Most of My Pictures I would Use Mirrors, It is that song that fits, But I have to Change this shit up a Bit cause It would get Boring if I didnt Right! I came back across this song after forgetting about it Like UBER Long ago, After so long You learn to appreciate the Little things about someone, this Nuances, thier Moods and silliness. I Love everything about this Person, Good and Bad, Sometimes the Bad even Better *Laughs* But really in the Last 6 and a Half years we have Been together and apart Then together, Then apart, then Together *You get it?*, It is all The Little things that add Up to the big picture, Which Is Us.


Your hand fits in mine
Like its made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots
With the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back
At the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I wont let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh it's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed
Without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason
That you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations
Are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I wont let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
but if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself
Half as much as I love you
You'll never treat yourself right darling
But I want you to
If I let you know
That I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you
Oh...

I've just let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you
Oh it's you
It's you
They add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

Cloaked Happiness

Cloaked Happiness, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

If you have not noticed, I do a Lot of Empowerment pictures, Reality Pictures, Common sense Pictures, Pain and Love pictures, all Of them are bits of my life, from one side of the spectrum to the other. I can do an Uber sad one to a Euphoric one in 5 Minutes or less. Cloaked happiness is just that, a fake beauty covering the reality of what we deal with. is anyones Life perfect? Naw, We all have our own shit to deal with, the only thing we can do is try not to cause More onto our loved ones and friends. RL will beat the hell out of us, SL is supposed to be fun, happy relaxing, Now Im not talking about hurt feelings here, that will happen regardless right after You receive that "We Need to talk" Message... lol, Im talking about the Blatant Disregard for those who you claim as friends. Like for an Example, Your a Bit Tipsey and Your BFFs Boyfriend wants a Lil Quickie, You have decided your to spineless to be honest so You creep around on an alt, You hear a Rumor about a Friend and decide Instead of sticking up for them You pass it on to your circle, You Give away Personal Information that was supposed to be kept to yourself, Seriously, Your Not a friend if You do any of these things, Your a disgrace to the word, THe Word Friend is NOT just a Noun It Is also a Verb, It is a 2 Part thing, act Like a friend Dont just say it then shit on everyone. While I am On my rant here let me ALSO point out, IF you do decide to shit on your friends, however it goes down, Don't just send em a smiley 6 Months later thinking "Oh We should Be cool" In order to Open up communication of someone You shit on,, It is Not only Customary, But Pretty Freaking Common sense to start with an apology. There are some people who are Not accustomed to being apologetic for anything, I Offer You this Link, It was Used by someone I Know, and worked wonders to bring Us back together over time, www.wikihow.com/Write-an-Apology-Letter So do not over step Your friendship, Like "Ohh She will Never find Out" Or, "Its been Long enough" Hell No, There is to many Decent people out there to replace Your ass with, so do not think your above an apology.because Your not, Your just another Deleted name on a List of the many that Log in.

The Beauty That Surrounds You

The Beauty That Surrounds You, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

If your looking for the good things in life, If you cannot find it, You only need to look around, Remember that Movie where that Plastic bag was caught by the wind? Trash made beautiful by the controls of nature. Ever stared at a Bush or flower for so long a bee came to Pollinate, Its Furry body ofsetting the Bright beautiful colors for the flower? Watched the trees move while Your laying below on the ground, listening to the leaves rustle in the distance. Beauty is everywhere, take the time to watch it, Eventually it will become part of you, Inside and Out

Regret

Regret, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Regret sucks really, Dosnt it, Especially When the One person you let down was Yourself. I think forgiving yourself for doing something is hella lot harder than forgiving someone else for fucking up, because When we ultimately do it, we are the Ones accountable We are the ones who pay for it. It is Not easy to apologize to ones self now is it? *Coughs* I am Really Sorry I did that (at this Point that pit in our stomach grows and a Cloud covers any hope and light we had and we start remembering all those things ALL over again). Then there is the other side, the actions we take AFTER the apology, Do they come close to the action we should have taken? I have apologized for stealing a cookie, But then stole yet another One.. Not the Most stellar apology since My words and actions did Not correspond.. I Wanted the damn Cookie, Im Only Sorry I got CAUGHT taking the damn Delicious Baked good Oozing with chocolate… Thanks Mom . So I I have No Lesson Here, Just My Fav saying, Action Talks, Bullshit walks… If you cannot back it Up, Shove it Up your ass 

Color My World

Color My World, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

When everything else fails, When you think you will never find happiness, when you THINK you had hit bottom, to far to climb up, when you have given up all hope, when you finally decide you were never ment to be happy is when you realize the reason it never worked is because there was something better.

I've had enough of not believing
Living life without a meaning
I want something real and I feel it when I'm next to you
Let's put out some love and devotion
Window to my hearts emotion, till the very end
It's the place I'm gonna keep you in, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Color my world, draw on my heart
Take a picture of what you think
Love looks like in your imagination
Write on my soul, everything you know
Use every word you've ever heard to color my world

Color my world, yeah
Let's make a world for you and me
That we're never gonna leave, yeah
Color my world


www.youtube.com/watch?v=6qegQ0xQtuI

Blue

Blue, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Every have that moment, the world stood still, all around was motionless, Everyone of your movements seemed to rush havoc onto the entire universe. I love these moments when we can stop, Look around See the beauty in silence, Take in the nature of the moment, Regroup your thoughts and let them bury themselves properly into your memory. Some things we cannot control until we hit that point of of a subtle comatose start of awakening, then we are able to see that belong where, taking the bad and seperating the lessons from the pain, a Wise man once said, a stupid man nether forgives nor forgets, a smart man Forgives and forgets, BUT a wise man Forgives and NEVER forgets. Let the lessons you have learned carry you, they will always make tomorrow easier.

Wont Let this Go

Wont Let this Go, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Okies, Peeps I am Out, This pic was done for Someone Whom I am Leaving ya all For today so No More Pictures till Further notice ;) May your heart be blessed with that one who can make you feel all Warm and fuzzy.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tldm6uMt1J8

Your My Yesterdays Tomorrow

Your My Yesterdays Tomorrow, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Pose E9 - Sitting Pretty
[ SAKIDE ] Out of Asylum Outfit Black

Forever Young

Forever Young, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

So we live a life like a video when the sun is always out
And you never get old and the champagne's always cold
And the music is always good and the pretty girls
Just happen to stop by in the hood

And they hop their pretty ass up on the hood of that pretty ass car
Without a wrinkle in today 'cause there is no tomorrow
Just some picture perfect day to last a whole lifetime
And it never ends 'cause all we have to do is hit rewind

So let's just stay in the moment, smoke some weed, drink some wine
Reminisce, talk some shit, forever young is in your mind
Leave a mark that can't erase neither space nor time
So when the director yells cut, I'll be fine, I'm forever young

Forever young, I wanna be forever young
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever and ever


Jay-Z - Forever Young Lyrics

Online Games

Online Games, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I do not feel that this picture needs a description or a story. I believe it tells a story in itself and all of us have played part (Thank You for all the Support On this Photo, It means SO Much!)

Dancing With Death

Dancing With Death, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Is it Possible to Learn to Live, without the Existence of Death? Is it possible to grow without out lessons? Are you capable of appreciating the good times without the bad? Can you learn to overcome things, when there are no obstacles? Without the Darkness, There is no light, and vice versa, We cannot have one without the other, the key is to embrace both sides as your friend, throw yourself into each when presented, if you do not, no lessons are taught, No appreciation is gained. I Love the dark, only because the light is so prominent, I Love the Light, for it is my salvation. For my life, I choose to dance with the darkness, let it envelope me in its sorrow, For once it grows tired of me, The light shall embrace me in its warmth.

The Last Stand

The Last Stand, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I Had a song I did this song for, But the picture is a bit to Sinister for the song.. LMAO.. Hmm. How do Iget my Ideas? Mostly Songs, Or a Random text, a Skype Convo or maybe something somebody said So I can go from day at the park, to Death to all In 30nSec or less. SOOO Let me try to write something for this Picture since the song is apparently is NOT gonna work.
This is It, My last and final stand,
Alone I will Fight, No, I Don’t need Your Hand,
I don’t Need what You Promised, Nor what you gave,
That walking side By side, I cannot save,
I tried, I hide, I kept quiet for to long,
I smiled I Pretended, I sent you sweet songs,
I Paid, I cried, I Lied to myself and You,
I gave everything I Had, I was always true,
Here is My last stand this is what you get,
As my life evolves, and alone, You sit,
So Sad, so sorry, So Unbelievably clear,
Back then You didn’t want me near,
Funny Life turns, My angelic side died away,
Some parts Never change, Ill be Ok,
You grasp at delusions, We were Just long lost friends,
Not remembering the torture, How it actually did end,
For all the lonely nights, all the moments I felt so alone,
I was right in feeling that way; You had turned Into a stone,
Release My Inner Darkness, Sheath covered In our bloody Bond,
Here I am, Once I was a Friend Who you took and Conned

into the eyes of evil

into the eyes of evil, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

“Why Me” I whispered, Shaking and holding back the tears,
He half smiled, Half looked blank “It’s been so Many Years”
Cannot hold back my regret, Disdain nor the sorrow,
Nothing will ever be the same, Yesterday, Today or tomorrow,
Rethinking my thoughts, He does not give a damn,
But in hindsight I have changed, I do not know who I am,
I need to run away, He has No words to mask his smile.
His cold and heartless nature, were always his particular style,
I tried to break his shell, I tried to melt his heart,
Instead he ripped Mine out, grinned as it fell apart,
As I Look at Evil, so many faces it’s Been,
Apologies are worth a Million, But Still No one will Win

without You (Poetry)

without You 1, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

Without You I make No sense, I make no rhyme or reason
Without you I am lost, I cannot see through the Trees and,
Without I am nothing, But an empty vessel of broken dreams,
But with you I am strong, I am Hopeful, My Future Gleams,
Without I feel so Small, So empty deep inside,
Without you I have always been alone, Noone to Confide,
Without you I was searching, Searching for what you gave,
But with you I am Whole, I can go peacefully to My Grave.
Without I tried to find happiness, all I found was a lot of Doubt,
People who tore me apart, Chewed me Up, then Spit me out,
Without you I fell apart, yet tried to stand my ground,
But with you, Missing me, I was lost, but now I am Found.

End Of the road

End Of the road, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

At the end of the day where do you want to be? I guess that is the big question, because instead of saying I want to have my own business in X amount of years, 1 day seems pretty damn easy. At the end of my day I want to be one step toward my personal success, 2 steps back on memories and 1 step up on the competition.
Note I want nothing below anything, I spent most my SL and part of my RL being put Below something, I broke free of that and now I stand on the remnants of those crushed and crumbled aspirations and dreams, reorganized my thoughts, Filed away the tears and started over completely. At the end of the road do You continue? Turn back? Or just watch?
I have always been a believer of moving onward, never stopping my quest for happiness, wherever it takes me, down an old path, making my own, or maybe one someone else started themselves. I have all the happiness one could ask for, only because I have changed my wants, needs and outlook on the world, I changed within myself. I have no delusional dreams of any one person, I do not need them, I have myself, the one person who in the end has never let me down. It is hard being your own best friend at times, you want to blame yourself for things that the control was never yours, you were just on the sidelines maybe trying to put together the remnants of flying pieces tossed your way, but in the end, You were not the one making the pieces, and the failure just goes back onto the those tossing them.
My fav sim right now is named after Hell, It is my sanctuary of peace, Funny really, I lived in hell so long, it does not surprise me I am at home there. I sit there on my bike, look over the landscape, at the trees and lakes, the homes and churches, the memorials and bridges and smile. I have made my own heaven In hell.

Watching the day Go by

Watching the day Go by, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

People say I'm crazy
Doing what I'm doing
Well, they give me all kinds of warnings
To save me from ruin

When I say that I'm okay
Well, they look at me kinda strange
Surely you're not happy now
You no longer play the game

People say I'm lazy
Dreaming my life away
Well, they give me all kinds of advice
Designed to enlighten me

When I tell them that I'm doing fine
Watching shadows on the wall
Don't you miss the big time, boy?
You're no longer on the ball

I'm just sitting here
Watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll

No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go

Ah, people asking questions
Lost in confusion
Well, I tell them, there's no problem
Only solutions

Well, they shake their heads
And they look at me as if I've lost my mind
I tell them, there's no hurry
I, I'm just sitting here doing time

I'm just sitting here
Watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll

No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go
I just had to let it go
I just had to let it go


John Lennon - Watching The Wheels

Bruises

Bruises, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I started a Picture a few days ago, But atm its Not time to post, so I am going to jump back into my Pile if creativity to kick a few pictures out. This song is so sweet, about finding an old friend, sharing stories and just finding out your not alone. So nice when you find that someone again for the first time.

I would love to fix it all for you
(I would love to fix you too)
Please don't fix a thing whatever you do

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
It's good to know you've got a friend
That you remember now and then
Everybody loses

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
Its good to let you in again
You're not alone in how you've been
Everybody loses
(Everybody loses)
Everybody loses
We all got bruises
We all got bruises
We all got bruises

Night Stalker

Night Stalker, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

E9 Poses - Tessy Kitty
Mystic Tiger Outfit
Catwa Hair - TnT

Night Stalker

Night Stalker, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

E9 Poses - Tessy Kitty
Mystic Tiger Outfit
Catwa Hair - TnT

Bruises

Bruises, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

I started a Picture a few days ago, But atm its Not time to post, so I am going to jump back into my Pile if creativity to kick a few pictures out. This song is so sweet, about finding an old friend, sharing stories and just finding out your not alone. So nice when you find that someone again for the first time.

I would love to fix it all for you
(I would love to fix you too)
Please don't fix a thing whatever you do

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
It's good to know you've got a friend
That you remember now and then
Everybody loses

These bruises make for better conversation
Loses the vibe that separates
Its good to let you in again
You're not alone in how you've been
Everybody loses
(Everybody loses)
Everybody loses
We all got bruises
We all got bruises
We all got bruises

My Turlaccor

My Turlaccor, a photo by dy secondlife on Flickr.

So Long ago I acquired a bike, It was a rideable, Poseable awesome Looking bike Like really cool, after seeing it out of my Inventory for 1 day, It was tossed back in half-hazardly and forgotten. I Scoured My Inventory, Did a Serious Clean, Checked Trash, Returned Etc, NOTHING I was sad… It was a gift, as It is VERY expensive and Nothing I could ever afford. FAST FORWARD >>>>>

A year later, I found the bike, Or the Like bike I had, on Marketplace, I went to the store (actually Been there a few times, but after seeing the Prices, I sadly sluffed Off being poor) SO, I took a chance and I Wrote the Owner, Telling him the Jist of the Purchase with avatar names Etc and aprox time of purchase, and he was so sweet, He said pick one you like, Ill send it to you… Not even the same one if you like another… Seriously!! OMFG DUDE I LOVE YOU! Ok, Not the deep love But seriously, I am in debt to You. This is what I call Karma, I have always tried to be good in SL to ppl, I don’t fuck with their Minds, I don’t play games, I don’t grief or cause shit between people, I just try to exist and be a shoulder when I can. The creator did NOT have to send me shit, It’s been a year and well, as a creator Myself, I Know that Logs Etc are Not always accurate and nether are my purchase records. I sent him 2 Bikes, One was a Harder Looking Harley, Lots Of chrome etc at 2K then My Sports bike at 3K. He sent me the sports version which has 98 Poses (singles and couples), a Sex Menu, Dancing, Riding Option and tons of Options Like Radio, Lights, Fog Etc.
I am so In love with this bike, I have rode it off the platform at my lot, hit LL roads, Cycle sims, and only had it 3 days now. I would so Recommend these bikes, so well made and have so many fun things as add ons, Color change and did I Mention Music?? I LOVE MUSIC! So for now I’m the Biker chick, Funny, I have many biker friends who are elated I have found the Open Road.