So I found this Halloween sim, Had a great Maze which I did find my way out of… Must have been the black hair, really, and had lots of cool places with a haunted house, small gazebos with quant little dancing areas and Ghoulish looking ghosts wandering. A blood waterfall with a big skull for me to get all homey at in my Black witches costume and just to much to mention. One of the Sim owners was there and mentioned not everytthing was out yet, Cannot wait to go back again! All the Pictures are taken inworld, No modifications, So they are not cropped, But I hope you get a chance to visit them soon!
This blog is based on my secondlife experiences and common sense for the Not so common - My thoughts, Feelings and what I am told. I am not different than many except I choose to type the shit out and let it go. Secondlife is what you make of it, So make it wonderful.
October 26, 2011
October 23, 2011
Random Nothingness
Hi… Yeah been a while right.. Funny thing, I told a Friend who is not in SL anymore I had nothing to blog about, they proceeded to try to “Piss” me off, It did not work, I know them WAY to well and everything they said ether amused me or made me cringe from the thought but Not give me a Blog post.. They have since quit SL also, amazing how that happens we are still tight, well I think so, We chat offline in IM on other networks and stuff, but in SL they won’t log, They have no reason to, have they totally left, Nah, they will be back like me. Funny thing
Them: Funny how you have nothing to bitch about since you left SL
Me: I Know Right…..
But its true, I got nothing, No not nothing, about a week ago I got a random IM, Ok not so random, but an IM regardless, from lets say to keep it on the DL, a Friend. They were apparently horny and wanted some, and they ended up in my box, Yeah this is gonna go far… Ha ha I cannot tell you anymore cept for they should have known better, and That was pointed out.
Then there is the people out there who all of a sudden come back to life, like me, We are lost, I know tonight I spoke to 3 people, Even my BFF was afk, Really its like crap Im on for 3 hours and 1 person I was talking to Inworld is not even INWORLD… Yep, ha ha, WTF. I am not a socially inept person to begin with, But as I saw people who I knew I had somewhat bonded with I said a hello, they chatted back, but really, I still felt a bit out of place. I know I know Ill get back Into the swing of things, I miss it, and I will get Bk on as I used to, that is a No Brainer.
Ok I guess I am done for now, I know,,,, Lame as hell, but yeah that is all I got, Well for now working on another blog though, May take me a while, considering the Like of it took me four years, Yeah, I can be slow sometimes. Keep it virtually real, Peace Out
October 17, 2011
The Holiday that Never Dies….. Halloween
I am not sure about you, but as a child, even Christmas could not compare to Halloween, and still cannot as I relive it through my sons eyes. This is one of those novelty days where you can be whoever, whatever and whenever you want to be, Well the whenever still applies to secondlife all year around. Seriously my whole year is filled with my son asking me to add this or that toy to his Christmas list with the occasional I want to be a Policeman, Military soldier, Spiderman, Ninja, and lastly this year …. Batman. I will wait till next weekend to purchase his costume as it changes so often, and well, I am not a bank as much as he would like me to be.
SO yes, all the Halloween parties, Hunts, Gifts Etc have come in world, If I get to log in, I will grab the few that have not been over my Delivery Cap and then open later, But what I do Love, is my actual costumes.
So Here is a few of my Fav, If they are still available I will let you know where to get them 
This is a group gift I found, both the male and female outfits at Lovecats, So Grab it while its still available
Next Up is some BlackLace Costumes, They always make some Fantastic stuff
And this is My OLD Favorite I remember hanging at a party with Jane and Ceasar BACK in the day, Back when Cryophile was Neversedge, And well all of secondlife was New.
You do Not have to Buy costumes… Look for Free ones, they are all over, I surely have 30 in my inventory alone, But these are just My Picks for ones I may be wearing this year. Mucho Hugs and the one with the Most candy WINS!
October 10, 2011
Xntra City - empower the Eccentric in you!
Well that is the Location Title, But really it is a pretty cool city, Very Umm Eccentric. My gem there was a factory, that made your avatar into a Robot, I mean you went on this Machine and it shot you ll over, making your avi into this anonymous robot, and also gave you a hud to do tasks for RP, Now that is Pretty cool!
Location Description in SL
A community of Blank robots created in the Blank Factory to accept quests, battle Mimics in themed combat arenas, and protect nano from rival cyborgs. Tasked with saving the world by spreading eccentricity. Start in the Blank's Robot Factory for av & hud!
Of course I did Not have a master Folder in this avatars name yet so I made it real quick (I was already in line to be a robot) Yeah Im smart…. But It worked Out Wonderfully! Check this place out! Worth the Look around and don’t forget to Get your Robot On 
Being Made Into a Robot
My New Robot Look… Tasks later, But it was fun Exploring!
October 5, 2011
WTF happened
So I logged In, Well for longer than 20 minutes, It was a slow night in Real life, well not really but, I needed a break. 2 IMs pop up the moment my screen goes from black, One a friend who has a new house, and another who is my BFF there.
First IM
Come See My House!
Me: Ok, TP
Aftre waiting a few Minutes I decide I have not changed clothes In well, a few weeks, so I grab a new outfit, Try on a few different skins, and wha la – I am a Neko for the night. Escaping out of my cam I see I have company, My Second IM is there, Standing next to me, I laugh and say Hey! Didn’t see ya there, My house is your house, I have a come as you are or whenever you want policy.
about 10 Minutes later I get a TP offer from my other friend, Now really, these 2 are friends also, when new house dude first logged In, he was happy to meet my friend, and well, my friend gave him lots of stuff to start off secondlife with. So I take the TP, when I get there, I said Hello in local, they asked me to look at their set up, It was great, Nice lot beautiful house, Just fantastic.
I said
I am TPing * Is that cool
How are you been so long, How is SL for you?
Them:
Gimme a Hug
Me – U bet
Well somewhere In the lose of communication, Maybe it was My bad I did Not ask again, But I also did not get a No, I TPd in our mutual friend.
Glorious Ejection… Really , Hell Yeah I was Ejected and defriended in 2 Minutes flat as was my other mutual Er I mean Their X Mutual friend, I mean it was Like surreal for me.
I was talking to yet another friend and they said what did you do… I Did Nothing, I mean Intentionally Nothing, They said, they wanted You alone, they like you.
Shanking my head.. Nooo, We are not like that, I mean never have been, He disagreed, apparently I missed something, I declined to believe.
Well all In all apparently they had Missed my Request to TP in our mutual friend, and I was kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place since it had taken them so Long to send the TP and our other friend had shown up. It was a damned if you do thing I guess, I mean I would Never do something to someone to piss em off, I mean really this is ME.. I am the peace keeper for crying out loud I DON’T start shit, I just walk away. After a Few IMs and finally a letter in facebook, they replied, Yep, It was because they had not seen my Request, and really checking over their Facebook page, they had a bad day, I was the beating post.
They replied something like
I haven't talked to you in how long? I'm not fragile or sensitive to very much; but sometimes I get kinda temperamental (I am gonna call BS on this for that Moment) .you could have at least asked if it was okay, no biggie, take care
then a bit later
still shaking my head
Ill Copy Paste what I wrote back since, Well It is Mine
I am truely sorry I thought You saw Me type that and figured since You knew him it was cool, He was at my place when U TPd me, Much hugs and take care
So One glorious night In SL one of the Few I actually showed up for, was ended In an ejection and defriending, Now, I guess If I would have not asked I would not be so WTF, But I did ask, I even Copy pasted My Request to them On FB, Nothing. Maybe they completely missed it, Maybe.. and just maybe they were having a bad day.
If they did not know them I most certainly would have prodded deeper, but since it had been so Long we were caught up in hugs and catching up.
Being there for 5 years, I have a lot of demands, and people IMing me when I log in, I try to make the most of the 2 hours I get to log in, Shockingly I have not had a bad day but Kinda a bad few months, Hence I am not there. Yes I have filled a lot of my time with other stuff, but shockingly I do not have the perfect life which I am not going to go Into. Those that know me, Know my circumstances. and for My Friend, Yes I still call You my friend.
I meant it when I said I was truly sorry, and I wish you the best. If you knew me better you would know I feel bad for what happened but this is purely your choice, It is part of being in secondlife, People come and go and it is all your choice as to who you remain friends with. Cest La Vie
October 4, 2011
SoYou want to Be an Avatar
Secondlife is filled with, Different personalities and different beliefs. It is the Melting pot of the Virtual society. and it is Home to many. I know I have met VPs from companies to unemployed pipe fitters, Sports coaches to Restaurant owners, It is for everyone and No one, It is for those seeking something that is filling a void in what we call a Real Life. Some of us have no social life and others have one and just want a momentary vacation from it all.
Beliefs are one thing that set many countries apart, Being from the USA, I know our society is far from open, We are actually quite pissy. In Europe they have nudity on Television, Or Telle… They do not hide the fact that the female form is a thing Of beauty, Which I do agree with, But at the same time being brought up to Believe that is NOT normal,I would cover my sons eyes. I know when I visit Canada often their views on the media differ, their news is filled with not Shootings or the Child who who was found, In a brush pile in the woods and once we find out we are in it for the long haul.. WHo did this? We then follow the story for 6 mnths to a year, till the trial is over, seeing who and why.. It is actually quite twisted. I don’t like it, I do NOT watch the news. I know in some countries the legal age for adulthood differes By like 5 years from the US (All of them are Less None more than 18)
Bottom line is I have met a lot of people that have different views, Their chidhood was much different than mine. I knew a Bloke from England, He was brought up in less than normal circumstances, The adults would actually fight the kids and this was acceptable.. I do not understand this at all. Why would an adult try to harm a kid who was so young… It was hard for me to understand the mind set there, They had me watch Inserts Of a Movie (I will ask them the name and post it below) In the scene it was all the kids with this determined look on their face and then a group of adult men in this 50s and up, Some drunk, getting into a brawl. It hurt to watch and to imagine a child being treated that way. I am not saying all the people in the US are great parents, We are not, I know a few people who need to be neutered. But for me, It made me feel sick, and For that moment I felt an emptiness inside which I allowed to be filled by their pain, their memories and their past.
Meeting so many different people, you have to use a key ingredient most of us do not use, it is called acceptance. Be it with Race, age, Gender or sexual preference. I am not one to judge on any of those, Did I used to, Umm, Hell yeah, I had an issue with one particular race, It was personal, I think a lot of us harbor feelings for a while if we are hurt. One day in a meeting at work, I have made a comment and my Best friend looked at me, It was the realization of his Ethnicity, I had never asked, It never mattered. at that point any ill feelings I had for that race were depleted into finished business. He is not that race, he is a person, with a heart and feelings. I apparently had never discussed my distaste with him or I am sure it would have been brought up sooner.. Funny how 7 years later you can come across something that now that I look at it was so Obvious.
An Avatar is only an extension of our beliefs, Our thoughts sand feelings. If you meet someone who is acting crazy, Well if the shoe fits wear the hell outta it. Yeah, Of course not everyone is Ha ha Lets say “Well” but we are all made up of the same components, We are all human Our avatars reflect how we feel inside, apparently I feel Like a TALL, blonde with a closet the size of heaven. I may wear a neko tail, then Ill switch it up, again. I have no set hair, Like in RL, it goes with the day, Some days curly some straight. My furry friends are different colors, some bright some in the darkest of days in a Black steel look, But all days they are the same flesh and blood I last talked to.
Make your avatar reflect you, Make it you with perks. I often talk about my 2 avatars as 2 different people, In which they are, My old avatar Dylana had never parted from her Secondlife as a couple, She was fun but respectful to vows, was caring a bit more subdue. My avatar now, Lindsay, Well she is the wild child, She did partner for 8 months and respect vows, But honestly I am happy to be able now to do as I please, Have not strings and just log in when I want to or have time. It is the freedom without the attachments that woks for me right now. I think back on being Dy and It makes me smile, I know that she will never come back, but I know who I am today if you met me on the street is all in part of because what is did as Dylana.
Bottom line is when you meet another avatar, remember they could be your sister, brother, cousin, Never feel like your to good, and NEVER not see yourself in them, It could just as easily be you looking for a shoulder, someone to hang with or just simply help rezzing a box. We were all there at one Point now weren't we. The person on the other end may not be as Perfect as their avatar, But their avatar is their version of who they see them selves. It is purely them if they have the RL connections to do so, It is them and as you know only you can be you better than anyone else, as they can only be them, Don’t try to change them, Accept their differences, make it a lesson, Learn from it and there in itself you will find you can take them with you the rest of your life. .
So you want to be an Avatar? You already are, It is what you see in the mirror, who you choose to bond with and what makes you laugh, being an avatar does not make you anything different than what you already are, It only enhances your real life and gives you another outlet to show you, as a Human you can shine. Best of luck to all, Real Life, Secondlife, and all in between.
October 3, 2011
September 30, 2011
Enrique Tonight!
How do I Feel, Umm a bit numb with little firecrackers being set off in my stomach, a spark of energy and a permanent smile crossing my face It is the Night, The night of Enrique.
Yeah, I won’t be pulled onstage nor am I going to be partying backstage, BUT I will be there an this nasty ass weather cannot stop me from the Euphoria I feel (Like how I slipped In his Tour name).
He loves his fans which makes it an even better time, He appreciates them to the point where he will take some upstage and sing with them and for them, He is in spanish terms *caballero* a true gentleman and has fun with it. *Faints*
gracias mi héroe, Mucho abrazos y besos. Me encanta mi regalo de cumpleaños
The NYC Police Officer! Great Choice!
Your 14?? Really?? Shit! Ha Ha ha
September 29, 2011
Enrique, Spanish and Smiles
Well Not me so much, I mean I am pretty kicked back, do little but like to have fun when it comes to call. Tomorrow is my Enrique Inglasis concert with Pitbull and Price Royce… In case you live under a rock they are all very good…
They are in order of my likes.. Enrique (Feels a bIt faint) Umm yeah, He is pretty fukin hawt and umm I am sure a fantastic guy, Not that I go for a guy who only looks good but if I was, I would hope he would be in my selection ..Smirks..Seriously I have liked him since he released hero, then I bought his CD, found the Spanish versions of Escape (Escapar) and was full on in love with Spanish music after that, so this is like my Spanish Concert. I have been Learning a few Spanish words, one at a time, the issue is there is Female, male and Group, Single, and I am sure a furry version for those in secondlife…. *shakes my Head* Yeah I am still blonde, Gimmie another 10 years 
Gracias!
So anyway, I was going to grab some Bleeder seats, since really being unemployed again sucks but these were a wonderful Birthday giftie from my Facebook friend whom shares my Birthday. We decided to exchange gifts a Long time ago, and funny thing they showed up the same day, Monday after our birthday LOL. I think It worked Out because I would not have had time to call and do the grand gift opening on my Birthday nor am I patient enough to wait… Grins… Patience is an ongoing thing for me.. I try though.
I was sick about 2 months ago, was up at odd hours, at 4 AM the behind the Music of Enrique came on, I watched it contently until the Christina one came on then promptly fell back asleep on the couch my gator aid close by. I had no clue him and his father were estranged, But well, Really did he need his dad, I mean Look at this guy, he has a HAWT girlfriend, a HUGE following, and well apparently his father was hot in his day, Note I did not say HAWT, well LOL he is a bit out of my era…. Moving on. Nothing to see here.
So anyway, Miscellaneous stuff, Eh, was In SL for a few last night, Hit a club with Player and Reef, Oh and the blog I did a while ago called “Oh Crap Now I remember You” or something like that.. Umm Ha ha Funny story, It was NOT who I thought it was, She was there, we talked and are friends again, I told her, it was an Honest mistake, and really were are actually Neighbors by like 20 Miles. So yeah, Blonde Moment, she was laughing at Me…..
Besides that I have not been doing much Online, I mean seriously NOT MUCH… it’s the Burn out syndrome and I know once its to cold to hang outside with Chelle I will probably be AFK…. OH Oh Remember the Blog I did On Slave boy… *Shakes My Head* Well he IMd me the other Night, I told Him I was going to be away for a few Months, amazing we are not friends but he continues to IM me, maybe Ill finish that Up but My interest faded since, Well I’m not a Mistress, Maybe if he wanted to just Be friends I would have friended him…
Sooo I will Be AFK tomorrow (Manana) Yeah I got that word down! LOL so Ill post pictures of the concert as I can, But I have to call someone and send them virtual Abrazos y Besos on my battery first (Damn android batteries die before I can get a goldfish home… WTH)
This song Melts Me
September 28, 2011
Partnering In Secondlife
Being away for so long, I am now finding out a lot of people are partnered. Amazing what a few months can make, and amazing how things change, Like real life people come and go.
One friend had a party, Proposed in front of everyone to their currant partner, another did it on the DL and said it is a bit odd… She is married in real life and he is not used to umm, sharing LOL. the other said it is more for a reason to log and yet another said that it was something they fell Into … There is so many reasons and possibilities.
Now personally for the amount I have been asked verses the times I said yes, Is, well a bit off, but then after almost 5 years there, you get to see a lot of people and if your nice they latch into you and the first thing they think is Partner Me! No, I don’t attach profiles just because you started last week and need a friend.
I almost had a 3rd partnership, Noone knew about, it was with this dude, knew him a long time (Over 2 years) we were friends first, and well Lets say it did not end well, there was hurt feelings, and honestly I lost a friend out of the deal which really sucked because, well, the reason I don’t partner often is because I hate to lose friends over stuff like that. Yea Yea after he was a total asshole he did apologize in his own pathetic way… Laughs… Well now it has worked out for both of us, we are not friends anymore but the moment has more than passed and like with anyone who has ever hurt me, I may be hurt for a while but eventually I do wish you the best. Once in a while I will get a random IM saying hi, but yeah, as I told him last time, we will never be on a level where I have to trust him so any past issue we had are no longer applicable.
Regardless, Partnering is different for everyone, It is between the two involved and however they want to see it, Be it friendship, love, or anything in between. It can go great, it can get nasty, Once again it is all on the people involved. I have been on the sidelines of a lot of the nastiness. Sad but I thought some of these people were normal till confronted with a SL break up, then it occurred to me maybe medication was needed and very high doses. [
I am not one to be nasty, ask many, I am good with walking away, I am better than lowering myself to causing undue stress, and calling names, No reason to, I mean really, what good does it do? and really I was the best thing they ever had so.. Smiles… Their loss.
Virtual Burn out
What do I have to say about virtual burnout….. It happens, Kinda like a cold you did not expect. But it is here. Mine started a movie night, after 3 Fridays in a row, we liked movie night… it was a cute movie but my shapshifter friend had plans already. He was itching to get Out, I guess I had plans to really, But I was determined to finish the Movie, After that, It just kinda coasted, They were with their New love, I was on a unknown road of uncertainty with another. I guess really in a virtual world, It is the people that matter because they are the reason you stay, and when they go, You lose interest my shapeshifter friend has Hiatus every year august through September for their busy season at work, and my Unknown road came to a halt when the road disappeared Into the silence of nothingness. I still logged for a few weeks, But it became monotonous.Then there was Nothing, an Occasional log In, flooded with IMS from those who wondered if I was Ok, and of course the same people who had the notion I was the “One” for them. I have Not DJd in a Long time, My PC is not my high Priority, My son riding his bike and tackling his Razor was. Doing stuff outside and talking to my neighbors, which will stop as the cool air sneaks into my calendar.
So I am not on as Much anymore.. True. Chatting To my old partner, on skype, they gave me the heads up they were partnered.
Him “We are not like you and I were, we are just friends and hang out, I needed a reason to log”
Me “Hang out like we used to In the beginning”
Him “Yeah”
Me “thank god, cause god only knows we went nowhere” Smiles
I am happy for him, and I told him so, She is lucky to be attached to him, He is honest, sweet and caring. and If he is happy, so am I, No one will change our 2 and a half years. Kapech…
So here I am, I have brought so Many people Into SL and I am nowhere to be found, Yeah I know, I’m just not right. LOL, I try to divide the little time I have there with those I am still close to. Shapeshifter and I, well We will always Be close as 2 Nuts in a shell, Well we resemble those at least. and I chat to Player on occasion in IM, they are not in SL much anymore ether so, It works out to just keep In touch.
What have I been doing?? Well You know, I have been growing out my hair, doing my nails and talking on the phone. I have been Listening to music and playing on Facebook. Writing Poetry and well, accepting it is time to Release My Meeroos, Yes I finally did that, Poor lil guys, they were lonely anyway.
I had My Birthday last week, Went out to eat, bar, but my highlight did not come till monday. Me and a SL/FB friend exchanged gifts, opened them at the same time on the phone together.
Mine was a Flat envelope, I fully expected a gift card, Eh he is a guy right? His was a box full of stuffs from Michigan, Sitting in the car, as I opened what I now sure was not a card since it was not credit card Like, I pulled Out 2 lower level seats to Enrique Iglesias… I was shaking, Tears formed as I was Probably hyperventilating when I saw them… He just said, Have a good time. Gracias Mi Principe… So I have that this Friday. I am taking a friend whom I used to attend concerts a lot with, She has had lots or turmoil lately and we both need a night out, The show is Officially sold out, and I hold onto these tickets that as far as I an concerned are golden, Because of who gave them to me and the fact that well, It is Enrique. She asked Me, How can you afford these tickets? (I was going to get Nose Bleeder ones) I said, Ill explain over dinner.. We don’t talk a lot due to conflicting schedules LOL.. SO I am geeked, and honestly Not being In SL as much has allowed me to appreciate the occasional night out, the moments of happiness Real Life can offer, and it has also made me reach out to other social networks and talk to different people. I will be back, I promise, I am a Lifer, I cannot leave, I am just AFK for a bit, But Ill be around tonight.. Mucho Hugs and many thanks for those who have stuck with me.
Prince Charming, Cinderella, Princess Aurora, Prince Philip and HeartBreaker My Meeroos, May they Live in Virtual Pet heaven Now
September 26, 2011
Real Life Lies
So you met the perfect person huh? They are everything, You share thoughts dreams, your day, Your sadness, your smiles and you have that one connection.. They are the “Shit”. You think so Huh? Funny I may not talk to a lot of People in SL all the time, But Facebook is fantastic, because I can still relate, communicate and keep in touch with my friends.. But then I can also see the latest drama.
So I have a friend, Who by all rights is an Eligible bachelor. He is in his Mid twenties, an artist, taught, plays music, and has a lot great qualities. It is No surprise he has girls falling over each other to get to be with him. He is Fickle, and I mean that In the kindest way possible. I will tell that to his face, No fluffing it. He is, BUT he does fall and fall hard.
Now he is a romantic when he wants to be, Hence the falling, He is not your typical playboy, Just has episodes of “Stupid” as my old friend sebastian put it.
He meets a girl, He is across the world In the UK, she is here somewhere a dot on the map between here and Canade, I'm honestly not sure. Where ever she was, She was falling to, and falling. Now my friend has met a lot of girls on here (I am talking secondlife) and I mean In real life, they go to meet him, He is not a psycho killer, a very pleasant guy.
I remember the one girl he met had sent him Old pictures, was a total lazy ass, and ended up puking on him one day out. This was just before he took her to his sisters house and she was caught taking pictures of his ass with her cell phone… Ahhh, Its great meeting new people isn't it?
So anyway, This new chick was perfect, She was His Ying to his yang, His peanut butter to his jelly, She was what he had been looking for, and she was moving to be with him.
No Lying is not so new Online, it is quite old, Kinda like prostitution, the oldest form of employment. But Prostitution did not lie, it just sold its goods, Lying sells False goods for the price of someone else.
Long story short, His perfect 20 some year old fiance, became 40ish, She was not alone she also had 3 children ranging from 10-17 and well, She was married, Yep, Here she is In Europe now and she is married with children.. at this point I have to wonder WTF do you tell your husband.
Ponders….
“Hey hun, I just need to get away, saw there was a Craft show In (Insert City in UK) I want to go to, so Ill be gone for 14 or so days, Umm Love you and Bye”
Or
“Umm I met this great person online, Yea a total stranger, Oh it’s a guy and Umm I want to meet them because we have sex all the time Online, So, Please make sure You make lunch for the kids, Kay? Bye”
I really don’t know what happened On ether side, I just know the beginning and the end result….. If you have No plans to ever meet, If Your married or of you just need a get away, For the love of god, Don’t go to these extremes… I feel for my friend who at one point was totally taken by this conniving Bisch… I mean really, How do you pull this together… So, I guess just remember, You only know what Your told the truth is in some shaded hidden area and not seen by the surface. and if there is any reality in virtuality, it is what You feel, and if you don’t believe me, wait for your next broken heart.
September 18, 2011
Secondlife Premium Life
So I got the email, Eh a week, Maybe 2 ago saying all these cool things about the premium memberships are changing.. It is about time, Crap I have been faithful for how many years now, My stipend has stayed the same… Really… an avatar cannot Live on Stipend alone. Well If you have any fashion hopes and Dreams of a New house you cant. So they give me free Furniture and a sandbox Instead of tossing me a few more Linden.. M kay, I’m not going to complain, well Much.
So I grab the LM for the store and it takes Me to a Kiosk which I buy and proceed to the sandbox… Really No one is there. I think the thing is that most build and chat, and Not all your friends are Premium so you suffer the Griefers to be with friends, But here it is a Desert, Ok not a desert, a Lawn textured area Of open options. First thing I did was Open my new folder and toss out the stuff, Not bad, BUT it does not give me a creator, What If I really like the stuff, I mean I want MORE Like it.. EH apparently you get what you get and you don’t throw a fit.. Move along people nothing to see here… so don’t like it to much cause you won’t know.
All in all It was decent, Had shadows, and a Low prim count, Colors Not horrible although I HATE orange.. color change pillows would have been cool. Hey Linden Lab.. Please see Zen Creations for your next set… Just saying. So anyway, Maybe now that I have a desolate area to build, maybe Ill start working on that house I have been wanting to make.
September 12, 2011
Breaking Into Secondlife
Once upon a time there was a girl, she lived in second life… Well not yet really just a visitor at this point. Any way there was this girl Ok.. She had a account LOL.. Back to topic, I had at one time found an outfit, It was called racerwear, it was at this beach, I was only a few days old, I bought Lindens and went back to this Nude Beach Mall to Buy it and the matching boots of course. I had Maybe a dozen friends None who were ever online due to frustration or Inability to leave Orientation Island so I was pretty much on my own.
As I looked for the outfit I had found earlier, I received an IM, Most are random Right.
“You have a nice avatar”
Ok give me a break I'm New I have NO friends and well Hell they seemed, Well alive…..
I took it Hook Line and sinker, But really it was worth it.
*After a really Nice night out he asked Me, why did you change your hair…. On my screen it looked great, Not so much on his LMAO oh and BTW that is the Outfit I bought the day I met him 
Ill call him Blade, he took me to his apt, Only a few days older than I, He treated like a friend, Offered Me a place to say (I ended up buying a Lot myself) and showed me his Scripted shower… Laughs… I am still looking for that particular one over 4 years later.
Now, Being new to SL I was Not prone to know crap, I mean Really, OMG I did Like him, He was freakin adorable, He was English, Had the dry sporadic, slightly off the wall sense of humor and he was an artist. I love the creative type, they see outside the box.. No they Burn the box while painting trees and making Music with random metal objects.
a side story now, I did get him a transfer gift for his birthday, It was a very nice leather jacket, we both got them,…..I thought it was a good gift. he looked Hawt in it ummm back then lol
Ok this part Is going to sound horrible, I mean Really Horrible, Because I was Honestly clueless.. But we discussed it like a year later and Umm.. Gawd I am so stupid. My Birthday came around, and we hung at times, Not ALL the time though I mean I did Not see it as like a Partnership, and in my defense he NEVER asked Me, (Points to You.. Your fault)
(What I looked Like when I didn’t have Noob hair)
anyway he gave me a ring, It was beautiful, I wore it the Minute he gave it to me, OK, OK It was On the left hand Whatever.. I still didn’t have a clue on this whole partnership thing OK!
I remember we hung at a friends house with his GF and also my soon to be partner, whom in all honesty I had been spending the majority of my time with.
I remember he already had an X then, He had talked of how mean she was and how she had tricked him to see her and then her friends had griefed and then I am guessing objected him from the land.. at this point I was so new I was Oblivious to all the Drama. What I did know was how I felt though.
when we first met it was intense,,.. His words and mine.. He was the one who kinda broke me into Secondlife. I remember I bought him a pair of jeans… They were No transfer… Really.. I did that.. Like I understood.. I learned fast though. he was patient with me.
All in all there was 4 months that transpired and most of my time , Now keeping it real, Blade was a Player, He had many girls that he could choose from. He had SL buy its virtual balls.with another set in his pocket. He was not Lets say desperate. what set him aside from the majority was his creative side. He was not sending just mundane Instant messages, Each one was a master piece in itself. He has talent.
Another side story… Get him drinking, OMG Now that was funny, He may log in, toasted beyond any capacity and his creative juices would be flowing, To bad he always passed out before he could finish a sentence…
So, I got partnered, my partner of course had animosity towards him, It was hard at first, but one fine day at the sandbox blade IMd me. “I need a crypt built, Know anyone?” Umm Yea, My partner.. He is fantastic, and he was. It took a bit of talking but I finally talked him into making the crypt for blade. after a few Meets they started to almost like each other… I was happy.
Like real life, In divorces it separates people. I lost all the friends, Funny thing, I didn’t lose them, they had just kind of sided with team X. and Blade was one of them. He loved my Xs building, and after being a group of friends for 3 years, I had become the outsider. I stepped back, and left the group, I never defriended them, I still had a common bond, But all in all, I knew, they had bonded much more. Like with Blade, I also lost my closest Girl Friend to the partnership dissolving. I had spent more hours with these people than most real life friends, I knew their pet names, their fav drink, Their music tastes and words that made them laugh, I had pretty much lost my past due to a decision that was best for both me and X. Funny thing, I never lost X, He is and always be there for me, We hang in SL, Skype and poke each other on Face book. I guess that is kind of odd, I mean mostly when People break up it is mud slinging and name calling. You will never hear me say anything bad about him. He is a good man, and when it was dissolved it was the best choice for him and me. On occasion I will see them Online, I don’t say much, really I say nothing, so much time has passed and I feel like if I did now they would be like… Umm Why are you saying Hi, We have not talked In over a year… That’s pathetic Right?? so I stay on the DL with new friends.
So Ok, Here is Finally the Premise of my Blog, I get an IM from Blade, Now I have been to his sporting events and said Hi, Asked Him for LMs to his store Etc but never chatted properly to him, It has been very staple conversation as you would with any stranger. Regardless I was pleased to hear from him, He is not online much anymore now, He has a RL love that he came across in SL… Yea For You! He is very happy and is still, Well the creative genius stuck in an Emo lookin body. I will always remember the English Humor, the silly “Cock” jokes blade and X used to do (and probably still do) and him sharing his art and music with me (Btw Been waiting On that CD for 4 Years now) . He has a drawing skill of a god, and a mind as warped as any literal artist. If you cannot appreciate the details he puts Into his work, You must be blind.
Here is to wishing you well my friend, My OLD friend. We have had our ups and downs, I have pissed you off, and You me, we have fought, screamed and then let it fall off to the nothingness that is proper for 2 friends. You are and always will be My First SL friend, and Un Thanks again for that ring….. Laughs
Lindsay and Blade 2010
September 10, 2011
Best of Your Dreams
Have you ever had that dream, The one you could almost taste,
The one that kept you alive, It was no longer desire but a race,
Have you ever decided it was now your time, No holding back,
You ignored all the obstacles, Just set your plan to route then attack,
Have you ever dreamed that dream, where your wishes all came true,
It is this one wish I have, That they come true for you,
I wish you every star, Gleaming in the sky,
I wish you every rainbow, all the colors flashing by.
I Wish you your dreams and plans, all laced in golden hues,
I wish for this all, Because I believe in you.
I believe in your strength, You are one to over come your fears,
You are positive and your smart, you stand tall through the tears,
You have spirit and you have drive, something that many lack,
You look ahead, no flinching, For you there is no going back,
I wish for you your dream, and may each and every one show its light,
For you are one shining star, In the middle of the night
This is written for a friend, They are reaching for their dreams, if they read this, they may even know who they are. mejor de las suertes
Oh, Yeah! Now I remember You… Crap
So I was Online Last Night.. Yes It happens… Smirks, It started Off with an Invite to a friends party. Here is the funny thing… I had gone through my friends List and was You know like skimming it a bit, saw a name I did not recognize. The next thing I noticed is they were Invisible… Umm Really I don’t even know you and your going to hide… Yea.. so Well I hid from them, If I don’t know you AND don’t remember you, I don’t bother you, Why in the world would you HIDE from Me.. SO I figured I would delete later. So I got to this party and who the hell is there… Um Yea.. LMAO, Here we are hiding from Each other and AT the same Freaking Party…… So yea.. Eh I don’t care they Hid first so I was just doing what anyone else would do. Oh and I remember them Now.. They were another Friends Friend, apparently they never Intended to be my friend… Grins.. I’m completely ok with this, I honestly would rather You Not be my friend if you are going to hide just so you know when I am Online, and don’t think I cant tell, M kay. (I can always Delete them later) Any way, They had a great DJ there (DJ Trick) although he was playing 70s stuff for the party throwers He bumped it up later on 
Oh One More thing, My BFF is back! “Hey Love” Yea, His busy time is finally over at work, He does this every year, Leaves for a month or so and then reappears to join us in our quest for Virtual happiness. I was a bit sad last night, I had to turn down seeing Edward Kyoman, but felt I could not leave the party as it had just turned into a celebration for my friends. But Ed plays a few times a week, I am all your then
Well I am off for some RL peeps.. which is going to include seeing Cars 2 with Lil one and taking mom out for a bit, Mucho hugs and virtual Kisses.
Peace Out
September 7, 2011
Finding Yourself
I don’t have a lot of time to write, But I feel Like it so Here it goes.
It is funny how you can mold yourself to whom you are withm then glance in the mirror and then come to the realization, You have become someone who is a stranger to even yourself. It is that realization that will open your eyes to your next transition. It is that moment of loneliness, of despair that second of confusion that will lead you to your next destination.
We all seem to have a connection with certain people, whether it is Religion, Children, Values, Hobbies, or maybe just clicks. It is when you start to lose yourself in the abyss of choices.
I remember Disliking a certain type of music, I mean it just irritated me to all get out, then due to my surroundings and the people I spent my time with, I was singing along with the Music I once chose to chastise and had written off as trash.
I am not sure the do’s and Don’t of not losing yourself, Nor do I have a set path of finding ones self ether, But I believe it is all our job to eventually acknowledge that we have been lost in others choices, Likes, and lost our own.
Making this short, and to the point, I will take more Long walks, I will stop to hear the silence and I will close my eyes to feel the wind against my face, It is something I do not do often. I am going to try to remember what I liked before I was transformed into who I am today, and I am going to eat that dessert regardless of who thinks I should or shouldn’t. It is not easy being just You, and I am pretty honest about who I am, but then I look back and think, I am pieces of so many people now, all those moments add up to who I am right now, this second as I sit here typing, My style has changed, My thought process and my opinions. Over the years I have learned to accept differences and not define people by what they are but What their actions say. In the long run, the acceptance has become a staple for my day to day living. I do not want to forget what I have added On, Never, I want to Know who I really am with out all the assistance of others, I want to know who is this silhouette against the wall, the One mimicking me, the one who only does what I choose to do, the one who does not make the decisions. So anyway, I am going off to take a walk, Mucho Hugs
Peace Out
September 6, 2011
Making it Our Own
Soo I have had a Huge Busy weekend, Nothing much fun to tell you in RL, But Secondlife, Well, Honestly I have been on, but not a Whole ton, BUT I was on a bit Friday. I got to see a few friends and discuss life, Love, Organisms and Virtual Chaos with friends by the campfire. Always nice to just chill, No pressure and just have fun.
I guess the Highlight was a mutual friend of ours (M kay No longer Mutual, Umm not even a friend which makes the story Funnier) was in like with the one guy there, I received an IM from her saying he was emoting her and she didn’t know what to do… Uh, Not a brain surgeon here But, Just Emote back, Kay? No, She was lost.this female was Oblivious to an emote, She was freakin out. I tried to help her, Explain how to, as If there is a book on this.. Is there? If so maybe Ill send it to her house, Eh no, She is to frigid, Why bother. anyway, I helped as much as I could, she sucked up the little bit I gave her and hopefully used it…. Sometimes… Good story a year after the fact with him sitting there though
Then after my friends had left I had the Pleasure of hanging out with an Old Facebook friend T. What a smart ass in sheep's Clothing, Umm Ok, Not a Real Virtual sheep, But more like just very sweet and handsome avatar. I had the best time chatting for.. Well Im not sure the ambien kicked it and I lose time, But He said I had not clue you would be this amusing here as you are on your facebook page…. Umm, M kay you got me on a good night, Don’t expect this Everyday!.. Ha ha, But he was good at dishing out and taking shit so It was fun none the less…. R, He would have made you proud. Hugs T, We will hang again soon!
So Saturday makes its way into my schedule and I log in. R said they were coming on after the game, Oh, I understand, Sports are much more important than Secondlife… SO I waited, then I thought, U know He needs a Make Over, Sooo PW in had I jump on, I' IM one of My BFFs and he helped Me make R into the Hawtest dude.. Holy Hell Batman, I was Like, Ummm, Really.. Ha ha. So when R logged In, It was some dancing and Music, Said he liked the new look, and we chatted for, Um a Long time, IDK what time I went to bed, I think it was 1 or 2, But dammit, The night was complete. I had done My duty to make SL a better and More Beautiful place by making him over….. Did I mention he looked Fuking Hawt? Oh I did, Lol Ok, Well here is a few Pics so You believe me.
Dancing
Chilling
Still Chillin
So R.. Thanks for Kicking It with me, I know Downloading all the software is a pain in the Ass (Yay Team Phoenix), Hugs and hope you liked it. enough to come back again one day.
If there is one thing I have learned In secondlife is that you make it your Own, It is whatever you want it to be, It is Your choice. I have made it my get away, from all the stresses and all the crap. Once it is My time, I make it MY TIME. To all those that share their time with me, Thank you, Because I know you have tons of friends on your list, and so many you could be with, But you choose me, Of all people, and for that, It means the world, Thank you for putting me there. Mucho Hugs I G2g.
Peace Out
September 1, 2011
All In
Funny how we tend to choose a polar opposite of what we need. I am infamous for dating players, funny thing they know I hate players so they chill for a while, they gaff me, then the real guy comes out. Amazing how men get pissy because we can fake an orgasm. Yet they are the Masters of faking whole relationships…….
I have a blog called what a girl wants, Anyone that would like to get to know me is requested to read it, they do and they oblige until it is not convenient. M kay,,,,,Next. This is also another reason I do not partner, I am picky to the point of, If you not all in, or drunk when you asked me, I cannot believe you.
Awhile ago friend was drunk, So drunk, that he loved me…. I was more amused at his Drunkiness than I was the word. I did not budge, but only stayed there till he would finally log off into their drunken state.and pass out, Of course forgetting everything that was said. It is so easy to fall into something, Yet so hard to be all in.
Before you decide your going to be all in, keep your sanity in check, keep it real and for gods sakes don’t do it because you don’t want to lose someone, Because in the end you may lose them regardless, you will most certainly lose their respect for bull shitting your way through a relationship.
You may not mean the world to everyone, But to Someone you will mean the word to, Isn't that what the goal is?
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