You are my Vacation

You are my sunsets, and the painted colored sky,
You are my ocean, with the waves and seagulls flying by
You are My mountains, with trees reaching up to the clouds,
You are my Love song, Without saying anything Out loud,
You make me travel, to rivers and cobble stone walks,
breathing the fresh forest air, holding hands, having talks,
You take me to islands covered in sand, palm trees sway in the breeze,
you make smiling come so easy, with you I am at ease,
You have given me the moon and stars, without taking away the night,
you let me be Myself, and make it ok to not always be right,
You are my ultimate vacation, My favorite get away,
I may not always say, But in my heart, you will forever stay

Losing a SL Friendship

Have you ever known someone for ages, But never really gotten to know them, nor taken the time to due to your lack of time maybe even interest. It happens more often than we admit, accept the friendship and just move on, maybe some light banter, an occasional hello or hang out every so often but nothing you were going to write in your prim page diary. With that being said, we come to my best friend, Enn Jaxxon. I had known Enn for 2 years, yeah, sad, but regardless we chatted at times, nothing concrete or bonding, just how are you? Kids? Life? Work? Etc.... Yes we had the platonic never see friendship down after all that time.

May of this year for whatever reason he started coming around, Alot. I did not mind, he was always very nice, humorous even, and we were both alone. It seemed to "mesh" We talked alot about family, Beliefs, Music, Daily happenings, News, More music and how we saw happiness rise and fall in Secondlife. I took him shopping with me, then he took me shopping with him, We play around with wizard HUDs, Introduced eachohter to alot of new music and videos on my TV at the house and bared our souls, we had eachothers backs, We were meant to be where we were every time we were together.

We watched relationships rise and fall, Heard gossip and shared, watched friends stab other friends, But still stood tall and firm that we would not be like that, and we did. A week ago I recieved a Notecard in short saying he was leaving SL, I felt abandoned, as he probally did when I told him I was Partnered to Will. I know his reasons are good for leaving, Real Life, It is a good life when taken advantage of and the opportunity is there. He has a family that love's him, Children that adore him, a Job that drives him to Exhastion and a License to go anywhere he wants to go at a moments whim. He is having Movie nights, Game nights, Quiet nights and Just being his RL self now, Kinda like we were, but in reality, with real people.

In Short, Enn, You have been there for me Forever as far as SL standards go, You held me when I was hurt, you mended my broken heart, you saw me through the suicide of a close friend, you shared every aspect of your RL person with me and I with you. I Thank You for standing beside me and loving me for who I am and not some Virtual Pixel with an Image. I wish you the most in happiness, Love and all that RL can offer, and till we meet again in a textured jungle such as second life, I am here, I always will be, a Friend in waiting, always keeping you in my prayers. You will be missed, Much Love, Lindsay (AkA Connie, The only attractive Blonde In SL) *Grins

New Years 2010-2011

Due to technical difficulties and secondlife lag my night out in "Fancy" dress was brought to a halt... Barely any events, Which I have noticed since LL changed the permissions on posting, and the few places that had something was PACKED! I am not a lag whore, I don't wear a ton of prims and the people I was with were also walking thru walls if able to move at all, It became a Ill TP u to the dance floor contest, We all lost. Life is all about plan B right? Home again Lets change and hit a Regular club, that was short lived, Chatting on skype and a bit of boredom later, We all decided to hit the house again... Yes, the Hub of where all good ideas start. Will (Aeonix Aeon) Said "Hey Lins, Start your stream, We will have our own party"... So we did, No event, No Hope for anything big, Just chatting and enjoying the new year come with those that we are close to, Not a bunch of strangers. Started off with Me (Lindsay Heslop) Will (Aeonix my secondlife partner) and Jewlie Diesel (Aeonix's BFF), I was tossing together a play list while Aeo and jewlie IMd Peoples and soon We had a roof full of People, Javier, Sanlyan, Omegey, Midi, Giselle, Mandoaa, Topaz, Carmine and a few People I am sure I forgot. We brought in 2 New years, One for the majority and another for Midi and Giselle who were an hour behind, We bantered each other.. Well Mostly Mando, He is way to easy to give shit to, and I think all in all it was a great night.

at 2:30 my time I pulled stream and said my good nights, and turned my Vodka filled brain off. I did not have everyone there that I wanted, Some had that, Oh, Real Life stuff going on I hear about, and good for them, I was quite happy drinking safely in the confines of my own home, Less drunk drivers and I did not have to deal with other drunk people spilling stuff on me, If it was to happen, I had only myself to blame.

Secondlife is a community of people with so many differences, Race, Religion, Upbringing, Social status, and it s Secondlife that wraps it all up in a pretty bow (sometimes lagged a bit to open though), It is how we accept those differences and allow it to add to our own that counts. Every person that has entered my secondlife has made an impact, Good, Bad or Indifferent. I love all my friends there, Have disdain for others (did you want me to name them Heh heh)But anyway They all mean a lot to me, some, Yes I am closer to that others, some move on some stay for the long haul, But each have left a footprint on my Virtual heart. I wish my friends a wonderful new year full of compassionate Hugs, a heart full of Love, Health that would leave any medical journal empty and Laughter beyond their own imagination. For those who I shall meet later or those who I never cross paths, I wish you the same, I am sure we to would find a common denominator given the chance.

Just a quick shout out to hose who have impacted my Secondlife for over 3 years now, In order of when we met.. No Whining Please! Cale, Trolo8, Amle, Carmine, Enn, gimly, Jason, Tosha, Aeonix and Jewlie.

Christmas Kisses

Glowing of the snow, the swaying of the trees,

When done to perfection, You can bring me to my knees,

the crisp night air, the moon shimmers defiantly Highh in he sky

as i waits for a connection, a Mistletoe i cannot deny,

searching seeking looking for the one that holds the key

I sits and waits patiently, with a bow under the Christmas tree

Bottle of wine Ready, Fire crackling by the soft fur throw

But whom will come to see me with my perfect mistletoe

who can make me feel whole, make me feel the Christmas Spirit

I lay alone hoping for something anything to come near it

Darkest Nights

Gentle whispers Blow through the cool dark Night,

Swirling thoughts in my mind, I cannot see the Light,

Sinking emotions float upon an ocean of despair and grief

searching through the darkness for a rock to crawl Beneath

Tiny glimpses of hope overshadows my doubt

Just enough to keep me still, not quite able to walk out

Praying, Hoping, wanting, Needing happiness

Still cannot reach out, always settling for less

Twirling stars in flight show me a path of hope

Beyond the dismal emptiness I feel, I grab onto the rope

Watching, wondering waiting for the Light to come in close

For all the things I miss, It is Purity and love the Most

Eyes closed tightly,my head shaking side to side,

waiting for the light and my darkness to collide

reaching out to you, but your image fades away

the light has come and gone, for yet another day

Inworldz Or Bust

After DJing at a club in secondlife for the last 4 months, the owner decided to make a virtual Duplicate of it in Inworldz, after much discussion,  begging and then finally the offer to "Hook" my avatar up with a look I finally said I would do the opening in December.  I logged (attempted really) approx 9 hours before my shift,  knowing I looked "Ruth". First off, This is a Beta Viewer, In my humble opinion, It is the secondlife viewer from 2006 copied and pasted with a different name. When I was FINALLY Validated in their system, I took on the task of making her over, being in secondlife for 4 years, I am privy on what is needed, but in this "New" Oasis of shopping I am lost.  The main search gave me many choices, But no Teleport options, the shopping mimicked the main search tab, I raised the bar a bit and tried classified, BINGO!  I had Options, and some were Known vendors in SL,  I tried a few well know skin designers, only to find the region was no longer available,after 4 TP's were cut short of telling me to log off, I Finally found a store.  It was not anything like I was used to, Horrid is not even strong enough to describe what I had and was to find.  Luckily for me I met up with a nice avatar (One of the 81 that were online)  and she was able to give me a few places to go, I settled for a "New" skin that was probably premium in SL back in 2007, But it did come with a shape with made me look like barbie on steroids (It was mod, I ate a few prims, had a breast reduction  and cut her off at the knees), Hair was another issue,  More broken links in the classified until I thought I had found a Gem, a place I used to shop at in SL till I found TRUTH, while browsing all the familiar pictures, I noted I had owned this hair already, 2 years ago, in Secondlife, I Coped again and bought the lesser of all the evils. One store there says it carries it all, Clothing, Skin, Shoes, Hair, a Plethora of Items, after thinking I had hit the jackpot the 3rd time I hit the same place and was let down, I found 1 evening dress that was also a short dress when needed, I purchased it after 3 hours of frustration and the need to get out of the grass textured clothing I had made myself.  Next was shoes.... I found a place right off, But crashed, Tried to re log, crashed again, Tried again, That region is not available, Back to Square one.  Sad thing is I could see the shoes before crashing I knew they were there, But not obtainable.  Hello welcome area.. again.  I logged, needed to do RL stuff.  Two hours later I came back to the task of Shoes, 15 places later that either were misrepresenting or just not there anymore I found a Pretty Ok shop, Nothing In SL I would have purchased but still it was a type of heels that would be copable (I use that word A LOT It is  taking the circumstances you have and just making it work). 

The evening began with @Darianknight attempting to make his avatar over, He is not one for lacking Virtual Worlds, poor quality items and excessive lag Needless to say it was a mistake to bring him over with me, His determination dwindled with every Broken TP and every store that claimed to have "The best in Menswear" or even just mens clothing and fell short of a textured T shirt in the corner.  I Listened as I tried to find a place to open boxes (Oh did I mention there is no sand boxes?)  I was able to find one (only one in the classifieds) , but my view at the landing was 1000 Meters away from my actual avatar location, I was stocked with items and nowhere to rez a box.  I was really trying to make the best out of the situation, the club owner was not online to help (she was apparently but the IW server was not updating) so I started with my music list.  Darian had found a skin,  I said It looked "Nice" with the demo on it... He sent me a picture of what he was wearing with no "Demo" on his face,  It took 45 Min for the skin to update.  I finally got to the club after IMing my friend and she then magically "Appeared" Online.  The lag was old school Secondlife... I even got the pleasure of having my legs wrapped up into my ass,  It was all my pleasure.  4 attempts to get into the club and 1 crash later she sent me a TP into the club. I MADE IT!  I found that being there had issues to,  The floor disappeared, you would fall through and be under the building, Unable to move (the floor is Phantom down only, Flying back Up silly, what are you thinking!)  so then your left with having to start all over again, trying to get back into the club through the lag ... those 12 avatars must have been wearing alot of Prims.  I was able to catch the end iof the live show, which started late due to IW crashing on him,  It was very nice once he got going though. Back to Darian, Poor guy,  he had to sit in a chair at the bar, otherwise he was Under the floor, out of lack of interest, Frustration and a higher standard for virtual worlds, he let out his true feelings over voice with plenty of disdain on skype making up curse words that would probably be illegal on any sim even if adult rated and His avatar disappeared not to be seen again, and by the way, He never found a suit or hair, he dressed himself in Jeans and a black T shirt and baseball cap.  Bald is a Popular look in IW for men I have found.

I made it through my set, and was safe after Not moving Nor dancing (The whole floor disappearing issue) No snafus, I was tipped 200L'z (thier currency there) I was not there for the tips luckily, and finding a store to spend it in is not worth the time. Although I had no Issues streaming I later found out another DJ was not even able to get thier stream to play IW,  All in all it was a night I will not soon Forget, I have my Secondlife, it is stable, It is normally pretty lag "Copable". Secondly,  I am not going to choose to go back to the 80s, Because I know what it will be like in the 20th century, Why relive all the Issues, Bugs, Instability and lack of talent.  I give the resident's there Kudos,  Their patience is Golden, More than I can spare.

Lindsay Aeonix

Welcome

I'm not a Blogger by any means, But hell I usually have alot to say. I may not stay on one subject long, But then I may not let it go ethier so I will run with whatever I'm thinking.  Today what I'm thinking is Simply Stress,  It is almost christmas, My Back went Out, My tree is not trimmed and No gifts have been Purchased, Yes, I am a bit shaken and screwed, I will be the one rushing through the Big Box store tossing In misc Items I don't even need to buy since I am not prepared for this following week.. Oh Bonus is Christmasis at my house,  Did I mention my back is out?? Makes vaccuming a it hard, also picking up  misc items which fall from my 5 year olds hands.  Coping is a word I use alot for stressful times, I cope alot.  I have Shopping, wrapping, Cleaning, school, and  a full time job to "Cope" with this week.  Have sugestions on Coping, Let me know, I am so open for suggestions.