Artistic Emotions

 

Why do people write?  Sing?  Listen? Paint? Sculpt?

It is a passion beyond words, It is putting your life, your history, you current place and your lessons into a group of clay, Colors, Notes or in my case words.  If I could sing, I would,  You would thank me for doing so believe me.

There is songs that I wish I wrote, I mean truly they are heart felt, they speak volumes of emotion without even knowing me,  They are my Heart songs,  They are when I hear them they take me back to a place where I can remember, taste, see and feel every note, every held note, every memory is some how connected to that song.

Simply Pain

I just heard this on the radio, It is simply put, a moment of realization, the moment you know you screwed up, let something go, or just not ready to let go,  It is taking all the pain and synchronizing  it with notes that blend into a a piece of music that associates anyone with the loss of someone they love, still love and cannot let go. 

Never letting go

The strings in the beginning make my stomach tighten,  It is a song of desperation for me, holding onto someone who is gone, someone who meant the world to you.  It is the death of a body but never a soul.  It is wishing you had followed them to wherever they are now.  This song brings tears of sorrow from the loss but Smiles of the memories… I have a stone in my garden it states “If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I’d walk right up to heaven and bring you home again”  Simply put, Undying love beyond any ones touch, words or title. 

That moment of change

Never wanting to let go of that one moment.  Wanting time to stand still, and knowing that time may change, but for now, it is ok, It is all going to be okay as long as you have them.  It is realizing that only that one person can change you for the better, and take you at your worst.  If only we all had that person in our life.

 

Live for each Moment

I could do a WHOLE Blog on Enrique…  Every song of his is good, But this one is such a fun, uplifting song, It is making the most of each and everyday.  Singing and dancing, Hugging and well, Have a drink to  

All of his songs have a message worth writing about, but this one is so Uppy (Is that a Word)  it makes me move, it makes me feel good and it makes me want to go to Cabo…

Let go of the past

This is such a sweet and happy song, it is full of acceptance and new beginnings.  Everyone has a past, everyone has made mistakes, Would you feel the same way if you knew all of them?  If you can accept your own mistakes, then they to should be able to also.  It doesn't matter what others think, It only matters that you are happy with who you are. 

Looking for Forgiveness

Scanning the radio one day I came across this song, I liked it enough to find it and fall even more In love with it.  It is saying you will judge yourself so much harder that others.  You are no more or less perfect that anyone else, Your mistakes are not who you are, only what you choose to become,  You are more than the choices that you made, you are more than the problems you create… I should honestly listen to this song more often,  I sometimes judge people without reason, I go on defense, and well,  I have my share of mistakes, once again, I am my own worst critic….

You cannot tell a heart anything

Smiles…. as good as this song is good its bad, It is a complete mess of emotions, good bad and well lustful.. It is the perfect relationship song, It makes all the sense in the world to those on ether end.  Hate and love are only divided by a fine line and the emotions together can sway ether side.. I hate how much I love you, I cannot stand how much I need you… Balancing a negative with a positive is how all relationships work, It is when you disregard the positives and accumulate the negatives that a relationship fails..

I wish you all someone you hate to love so much

 

Peace Out

Oh, Yeah! Now I remember You… Crap

 

So I was Online Last Night.. Yes It happens…  Smirks,  It started Off with an Invite to a friends party.  Here is the funny thing… I had gone through my friends List and was  You know like skimming it a bit, saw a name I did not recognize.  The next thing I noticed is they were Invisible… Umm Really I don’t even know you and your going to hide… Yea.. so Well I hid from them, If I don’t know you AND don’t remember you, I don’t bother you, Why in the world would you HIDE from Me.. SO I figured I would delete later.   So I got to this party and who the hell is there… Um Yea.. LMAO,  Here we are hiding from Each other and AT the same Freaking Party…… So yea.. Eh I don’t care they Hid first so I was just doing what anyone else would do. Oh and I remember them Now.. They were another Friends Friend,  apparently they never Intended to be my friend… Grins.. I’m completely ok with this, I honestly would rather You Not be my friend if you are going to hide just so you know when I am Online, and don’t think I cant tell, M kay. (I can always Delete them later) Any way, They had a great DJ there (DJ Trick)  although he was playing 70s stuff for the party throwers He bumped it up later on ), I did know a few tunes and after 2 hours the moment that they had waited for was there,  the one friend proposed to the other… Ok, All Together “Awwwwww”  They have been together for 5 months now I think so it was time to progress.  I did have the Pleasure Of My Friend ill call Him Rey coming by to keep me company for a while and then later on in the evening there was a lot of talk about My singledom… LOL .. Why is it so hard to accept that I’m a Bit Picky.  HA HA,  Eh I love meeting new People anyway, and maybe, One day, I will meet someone worth falling for full throttle, but for now I am happy to just have Great friends.  Oh yes, Another friend showed up also, they have been away a lot so it was nice to see them, hopefully they can log a bit more so we can catch Up “Heya Player”…… I am going to start using Nicknames, I have to, To many Letters of names and I am tired of figuring which T Or R I am talking about LOL.  Those that Know Me may know who I am talking about, or you may THINK you know who I am talking about..  and as far as assuming, It makes an ass out of you more than I… Smiles.

Oh One More thing, My BFF is back!   “Hey Love” Yea, His busy time is finally over at work,  He does this every year, Leaves for a month or so and then reappears to join us in our quest for Virtual happiness.  I was  a bit sad last night,  I had to turn down seeing Edward Kyoman, but felt I could not leave the party as it had just turned into a celebration for my friends.  But Ed plays a few times a week,  I am all your then    K.

 

Well I am off for some RL peeps.. which is going to include seeing Cars 2 with Lil one and taking mom out for a bit, Mucho hugs and virtual Kisses.

Peace Out

Making it Our Own

 

Soo I have had a Huge Busy weekend, Nothing much fun to tell you in RL, But Secondlife, Well, Honestly I have been on, but not a Whole ton, BUT I was on a bit Friday.  I got to see a few friends and discuss life, Love, Organisms and Virtual Chaos with friends by the campfire.  Always nice to just chill, No pressure and just have fun. 

I guess the Highlight was a mutual friend of ours (M kay No longer Mutual, Umm not even a friend which makes the story Funnier)  was in like with the one guy there, I received an IM from her saying he was emoting her and she didn’t know what to do… Uh, Not a brain surgeon here But, Just Emote back, Kay?   No, She was  lost.this female was Oblivious to an emote, She was freakin out.  I tried to help her, Explain how to, as If there is a book on this.. Is there?  If so maybe Ill send it to her house, Eh no, She is to frigid, Why bother.  anyway, I helped as much as I could,  she sucked up the little bit I gave her and hopefully used it…. Sometimes… Good story a year after the fact with him sitting there though

Then after my friends had left I had the Pleasure of hanging out with an Old Facebook friend T.  What a smart ass in  sheep's Clothing, Umm Ok, Not a Real Virtual sheep, But more like just very sweet and handsome avatar.  I had the best time chatting for.. Well Im not sure the ambien kicked it and I lose time, But  He said I had not clue you would be this amusing here as you are on your facebook page…. Umm, M kay you got me on a good night, Don’t expect this Everyday!.. Ha ha, But he was good at dishing out and taking shit so It was fun none the less…. R, He would have made you proud. Hugs T, We will hang again soon!

So Saturday makes its way into my schedule and I log in.  R said they were coming on after the game,  Oh, I understand, Sports are much more important than Secondlife… SO I waited, then I thought, U know He needs a Make Over, Sooo  PW in had I jump on, I' IM one of My BFFs and he helped Me make R into the Hawtest dude.. Holy Hell Batman,  I was Like, Ummm, Really.. Ha ha.  So when R logged In, It was some dancing and Music,  Said he liked the new look, and we chatted for, Um a Long time, IDK what time I went to bed, I think it was 1 or 2, But dammit, The night was complete.  I had done My duty to make SL a better and More Beautiful place by making him over….. Did I mention he looked Fuking Hawt?  Oh I did, Lol  Ok, Well here is a few Pics so You believe me.

Dancing

Chilling

Still Chillin

So R.. Thanks for Kicking It with me, I know Downloading all the software is a pain in the Ass (Yay Team Phoenix),  Hugs and hope you liked it. enough to come back again one day. 

If there is one thing I have learned In secondlife is that you make it your Own, It is whatever you want it to be,  It is Your choice.   I have made it my get away, from all the stresses and all the crap.  Once it is My time, I make it MY TIME.  To all those that share their time with me, Thank you, Because I know you have tons of friends on your list, and so many you could be with, But you choose me, Of all people, and for that, It means the world, Thank you for putting me there.  Mucho Hugs I G2g. 

Peace Out