You Suck

If you think this poem is about you,

You could not be further from Right,

It is entirely about me,

and my will to Fight,

It is about the classic Moments,

The ones that I made,

But as time slips away,

Memories also fade,

It is about perseverance,

and the strength from within,

It is about keeping your word,

Not willing to commit sin,

It is about making a promise,

About making a Pact,

It is about walking away,

Never Looking back,

It is about finding yourself,

In a world of Mirrors,

It is about standing Up,

and forgetting your fears,

It is about meeting people,

By chance or by luck,

It is about accepting the fact,

That you really suck

 

True Love

 

In the darkness of the night is when those with heavy hearts, with regrets with a lost passion find the moments unbearable.  We lay listless,and with to many thoughts in our head, as if there is a hamster on speed running and running over and over again but getting nowhere.  We pick moments apart, wonder why, where it could have changed and how it can be fixed.  But sometimes it is not that it is broken, it is just that we are hurt.  Time is both a blessing and a curse at this moment, For time rushes for no one, but in time our thoughts will dwindle to concentrate on other things. 

Once in a while a glimmer of hope may happen, but not always does it pay off, Sometimes it becomes the old standby of 2 steps forward, 3 steps back.  We must accept defeat at some point, but only  after we have done every thing in our power to rectify the situation within our grasp.  On the other hand, you cannot force another to do the same. 

While truly loving someone enough to let go, One must also accept that when you do care about someone, it is Not the reciprocal that matters, It is in the others happiness that matters.  In that is where the demons of the night sneak in, because at this time is when your alone, and even if it is a warm summers night, Our heart feels cold and empty at times.  We must let our delusion of Grandeur go, Our hopes for future smiles,  our thoughts of one more hug, Kiss or chance. 

It is not always easy but it is the right choice, and let their happiness continue on, with or without you.  It seems bleak, yes, But once again, as much as those hours seem to go slowly in the night, It is in time that we will see a difference, and rejoice in their smiles, even if from afar.  It is smiling at their successes,  Believing in them, even when they do not believe in themselves, It is keeping them in your heart, even if you are not in theirs.

True love is not always a love story or a romance novel, it is sometimes more like a comic book or a old war movie.  There is No rights or wrongs in love, for love overcomes all, even in the moments where you are sure there is no hope, your heart will carry out your wishes, your hopes and dreams for them. 

In my small years of living, there is one thing I am sure of, it is that when those moments of sleeplessness hit, When I am playing it out in my mind, when I am reaching for answers in a star filled night, it is then, My heart has decided to carry on, with them, even if they do not know. 

True love is not a word, it is an action, and expression and the one thing you cannot part with, for it is embedded in your heart and soul.

Not so Black and White

 

So I did a blog on relationships, called That Gray Shaded area But I left out a side, The side everyone else Presumes.  A relationship Is a 2 way road, But Be it friendship Dating, Serious or not, People will have their opinions.  Most are from what they see, Hear and notice, others from what you tell them, Others just out of pure speculation.  So now we are at a Square, No longer a triangle. 

 

No matter what you do you cannot stop this from happening,  It is human nature to come to a conclusion based on their interactions with them, Regardless of it was good, bad or just plain Hideous.

Chatting to a friend about a couple her comment was

“They were always perfect together” 

Funny because they are no longer together, But that does not stop them from having an opinion.  Not that I disagree with them or their opinion, I actually do agree, But once again it is a 3rd party viewing at this Point. 

So here it is, that gray shaded area has 2 areas, the reality and the assumptions that others place on that relationship.  It is usually the 3rd party references that have the rumors, the insinuations and sometimes they may be dead on, but one thing is for sure,  It does not matter who you  are but your actions or lack there of will be tallied for later assumptions, and judged by others.  So get on your game face and make it worth the rumor.

Peace Out

The Convenience Factor

We all Do this, We Devalue Ourselves, By allowing others to treat us Bad, yeah, maybe we are not sitting in a box on the sidewalk, but we m might as well be. When we allow others to walk all over us and accept it for what it is, we are basically saying :Its Ok, this is fine to treat me Like [Insert Word which applies to you] in my mind the word is “Shit”.

 

I am not one to take things personal, emotionally I am pretty hard to get to, but sometimes we all need an eye opener.

 

Clarification – The moment you see the light, the time when reality of the situation is clear and you understand the underlying circumstances.

 

I for one am worth more than a fleeting thought, I am in fact worth a Hell of a lot more than a One night stand and maybe a second thought. I am the Princess, Of my own world of course, and if you cannot step up and accept my kingdom, Be a Prince and treat me such, You have just been Knocked down a few Notches.

 

Basically put, Don't treat people like they are Disposable, because bottom line is you are just as disposable as they are, you can be replaced and quite easily I might add. My Feelings toward you may not change BUT my attitude sure will. I have had my fair share of friends who only seem to want to talk to me when It is Conveniant, and really, That is completely fine, BUT the bottom line is do not expect me to drop everything for you when I am in your time line of convenience when it is not a 2 way street.

 

Fairness – It may not always Be 50/50 BUT it is give and take, and if you give me Bullshit, I am happy to give it back

 

Ok, I know I am not a Victorias Secret Model, BUT I am not a Complete Dog ether, and honestly, If you can manage to think I have no one else to spend my time with, you are far from the truth. If I choose to spend the majority of my time with you for whatever reason, take that for what it is, Which Is A LOT.

 

Bottom Line – Once again Logic wins on this one, Logic is a beautiful thing, because it sees through the Bullshit and if 1+1=4, something is wrong, and I am more than accepting to fix it. I do not expect perfection, But I do demand respect, and that is Never devaluing me as a human, one with feelings and a memory, of well........... I can shock the hell out of most with my memory. If you choose to make me something of your convenience, be ready to be put in the same category, and Don't feel bad, I suggest if you have gone down a few Notches, Play the game fair and you will go back up, but \ don't expect it over night, Yes it may have taken you one strike to be down, But to regain that trust and respect, that takes work, and honestly, I am more than worth it, because I will give One Hundred Percent ALL the time, anyone who knows me, knows that.

 

Lesson for the day – Don't Play people, Because you may become one of the Pieces in their game of life to...

 

Hugs

 

Peace.. Out!